NSFW I crossed a line yesterday with selfharm.

[CicisDoingUnwell]

☆ ──꒰ (𝑪 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒚𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒈...)

I cut a bit deep. I never in my life hit my fatty tissue (maybe even muscle) while cutting and…

yeah, I was so drunk yesterday I had a complete crashout due to my Borderline splitting. I don't even remember what actually happend I just woke up in blood.

I had such CTB-thoughts, I really thought I will commit randomly while being intoxicated af. Was kinda reliving but also a bit scary to be honest.

Yeah, anyway - cutting is really bad, that the helly. :)

☆ ── 𝑩𝒚𝒆; 𝑪! ꒱

 

[getoutgirl]

I'm so sorry :CCC
that sucks indeed. agree. not great. 0/10.
I also fear getting way too impulsive while intoxicated. Not a great combination if you are having an awful day.
If you reached that deep and it keeps bleeding still, which maybe, please get it treated, might need stitches, also just really watch out for infection :< dont' use antiseptics if it reached the fatty, best distilled water or saline, and antibacterial around it if u have it, and yeah change bandages daily or so. U probably know the deal but in case. Again just sorry u had such a bad experience yesterday, Hugs <3

 

[CicisDoingUnwell]

I'm so sorry :CCC
that sucks indeed. agree. not great. 0/10.
I also fear getting way too impulsive while intoxicated. Not a great combination if you are having an awful day.
If you reached that deep and it keeps bleeding still, which maybe, please get it treated, might need stitches, also just really watch out for infection :< dont' use antiseptics if it reached the fatty, best distilled water or saline, and antibacterial around it if u have it, and yeah change bandages daily or so. U probably know the deal but in case. Again just sorry u had such a bad experience yesterday, Hugs <3

Hugs Love <3
Thank u sm <3

Intoxication is a crazy killer ngl.
And yeah, I need to see that It doesn't get infected. Because then I'm fucked… ://

Anyway, thank u <33