hacha

hacha

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Sep 1, 2024
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Hi everyone

My life is getting ruined by some fucked up entity that lives in my head. Its my ego who wants to kill myself bc I cant reach them perfectionistic standards. I want to live, I can enjoy life but they dont want me to. I feel so empty inside that I crave connections bc I am disconected myself. I seek validation bc I cant validate myself. Ive been thinking about Ctb lately but I want to give life a try. Im turning 26 soon so I still have one more year to join the 27s club. Im a desperate attention whore and if I ctb I would like to make a horror scene for the world to see how much harm and depravation does human experience.
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see."
Mar 23, 2023
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I think it's understandable to want to have someone who wishes you well for your own sake, when you are handling so much pain by yourself. I hope it gets better for you.
 
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mistymoo

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Im going to be apart of the 27 club
May 30, 2024
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I can't help but feel the same. You're not alone
 
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hacha

hacha

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Sep 1, 2024
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I think it's understandable to want to have someone who wishes you well for your own sake, when you are handling so much pain by yourself. I hope it gets better for you.
Thank you, I wish you well too dear 💗 Its like I cant trust myself so i need someone to do it for me.

Indeed life's a mirror
I can't help but feel the same. You're not alone
Feels good to be understand, thank you. We can do great things we only need to kill the ego I guessss

Love you
 
Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see."
Mar 23, 2023
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Thank you, I wish you well too dear 💗 Its like I cant trust myself so i need someone to do it for me.

Indeed life's a mirror
I guess so. I have been dealing with same kinda of personal issue for a while. It turns out that it's actually more influenced by these:


 
hacha

hacha

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Sep 1, 2024
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I guess so. I have been dealing with same kinda of personal issue for a while. It turns out that it's actually more influenced by these:
Yessss I am full of negative energy its a vice cycle very difficult to end, especially when you are completely drained and the idea of ceasing existence is appealing. A bad cycle ends when a good cycle starts. This year will be decisive for me, I want to try. Hope you get rid of the negative so you can do what you love in peace, good luck!

Also, what I thought was my twin flame left me bc I was draining her too. She said she love me but cant be together xddd

What are your thoughts on twin flames? I dont get the 3D or 5D stuff, is it related to energy levels?
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"More then your eyes can see."
Mar 23, 2023
1,078
Yessss I am full of negative energy its a vice cycle very difficult to end, especially when you are completely drained and the idea of ceasing existence is appealing. A bad cycle ends when a good cycle starts. This year will be decisive for me, I want to try. Hope you get rid of the negative so you can do what you love in peace, good luck!

Also, what I thought was my twin flame left me bc I was draining her too. She said she love but cant be together xddd

What are your thoughts on twin flames? I dont get the 3D or 5D stuff, is it related to energy levels?
I have felt humiliated and threatened when my ex has subconsciously sent me her negative energy - it's been scary and frankly sickening, and it went on for a whole couple of years during the time we hadn't spoken or seen each other.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
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Same🫂🫂🫂🫂
 
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