faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
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Well, there are many things which I have seen in my life and failed in many activities. But this fail is very disappointing because it is only one thing that makes feel more alive. I managed to fail even there. A few hours ago I took a bus to the small village which is located by the sea to have some fresh air (I am feverish) and feel strong gusts of the wind (to chase the storm). I noticed a huge wall of clouds ahead which were meaning that it was going to be a torrential rain. But when the bus brought me to the place where those dark clouds were above my head, the pure hell started. The downburst was so strong that trees were almost reaching the ground and you could not see anything, it was something like you are in the clouds already. The rain was smashing the windows of the bus like a hammer. I desperately started recording the chaos which was happening, but after 30 seconds it stopped and I realized that the video has not been recorded. Damn, I have been dreaming of seeing and recording things like this and when I got a chance after many years of waiting, everything was ruined. It is like your last hobby is taken away in a moment. I did not believe I will experience something like this before I CTB, but when it happened, everything went wrong. So I literally missed my last chance. Feels like the life is saying to me "You have been unlucky all your life, why should you be lucky now". Okay, I got you, I got you...Well, I could feel better, because I saw that with my eyes, but that was just a part of my desire.