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canyounotbesad
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- Mar 19, 2024
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I don't have a ton of people that check in on me on a regular basis so if I was to CTB Friday evening, after work, no one would really suspect until Monday when I don't show up for work. By then it would be too late. This comforts me and also haunts me cause on one hand it's perfect, no will bother me and I can succeed; on the other it's a stark reminder that I just don't have that support system. Maybe if I did have that support system, I wouldn't even feel this way. If I took vacation time that would be even better. I could say some shit like I'm going to a National Park, and no one would expect to reach me. I only know 1 person that would be suspicious if I didn't respond to them in a day or so, but that same person has also told me that if I continue having issues, they'll stop talking to me so grain of salt, I guess.
Does anyone else feel this way? Does anyone else plan the timing of it all? Like if you do it on X Day you have X amount of time until someone notices. Thinking like this makes me think of the lady who had died in your apt and no one noticed until 3 years later when she was just bones. Would it be better to die in obscurity or to be noticed? Cause if you were noticed so quickly, why didn't anyone put in the hard effort before? But if you die without anyone noticing isn't that as sad to think about? That what you're doing is the right thing? Does it even matter? Death is surely like a dreamless sleep. You just turn off. You cease to exist.
Does anyone else feel this way? Does anyone else plan the timing of it all? Like if you do it on X Day you have X amount of time until someone notices. Thinking like this makes me think of the lady who had died in your apt and no one noticed until 3 years later when she was just bones. Would it be better to die in obscurity or to be noticed? Cause if you were noticed so quickly, why didn't anyone put in the hard effort before? But if you die without anyone noticing isn't that as sad to think about? That what you're doing is the right thing? Does it even matter? Death is surely like a dreamless sleep. You just turn off. You cease to exist.