I cant think rationally about suicide

[Snake of Eden]

Does anybody struggle with thinking rationally about suicide? With me it is almost always emotional where I cant use my brain to decide to do it or not. I cant make decision and I dont know if it is because my SI. I will try and sit tonight and write down the reasons i should do it

 

[motel rooms]

At_The_End said:
After many years of thought and planning, I've come to the acceptance that there is never a perfect time, never a perfect method, never a perfect setting... It's death and there is nothing about it that is ever simple.

Exactly. People have this fantasy that they will be perfectly peaceful/determined before they ctb, that the world will stand still to salute them & whatnot. I'm pretty sure that my last thoughts will be a complicated mess of all kinds of crap because that's what all of my thoughts have been like so far

 

[FuneralCry]

It could possibly be the survival instinct as us humans are programmed to live. We may want to die but the SI makes it hard.

 

[PaxAmerica]

Does anybody struggle with thinking rationally about suicide? With me it is almost always emotional where I cant use my brain to decide to do it or not. I cant make decision and I dont know if it is because my SI. I will try and sit tonight and write down the reasons i should do it

I have come across your posts a few times. You are in a similar place to me. I feel for you bro. I am struggling. I have toyed with hanging. It hurts. I have self harmed and it works to a point but then the pain becomes tolerable. I dont know what to do either.

 

[sadbadpsychogirl]

i have the opposite problem. i think about it purely in a logical sense. emotions rarely factor in.

 

[Beached_whale]

What are your reasons?