Would you like to share this excruciating pain, what it feels like or why it's happening?
Yes, our solutions will probably suck, because we're in an insane world. That tears people apart before they were even grown enough to navigate it. Even many so-called "good people" passively watch atrocities. But one never knows, maybe out of sheer luck a solution presents itself
I was in a similar situation some months ago. Constant fight or flight. I had everything assembled to die -- then suddenly a solution popped up, something so crazy and coincidental. With the help of this forum. I really should be dead now, to the point where this could very well be a dying dream in the last milliseconds before my brain stops
If you decide to ctb, you're right, best do it well. Try to think it through, avoid the odd traps so you don't find yourself in a worse hell. You're valuable, you're worth it
