I don't know if I can help, having the same problem and when people who don't understand try to help it usually just makes it worse... Not sure why I keep trying but there's hope that maybe somebody could understand (then I feel bad for hoping that because they'd have to go through the same thing to be able to understand and I wouldn't wish that on anyone). Maybe we could better understand each other here, at least a little more than people who think they're "normal." I don't know, I'm sorry.