Venting I can't stand my life anymore

[tercermundista]

I set my date for CTB for December 31st of this year, but I can't stand it anymore. I can't stand my life filled with failures, living a miserable life, living in a country I hate with people I detest, and being a complete failure in every aspect of my life. I feel like I'm going to explode.

 

[kmycluisfe]

Yeah me too, I don't have the courage to do it but damn how miserable I am

I wish every day that I could die by accident

 

[Nobodi]

I'm sorry for everything your going thru I feel the same I'm drowning in solidarity, I'm purposely trying to see family just to to give the brain some stimulation. when I'm alone for extremely Long periods of time I feel the difference I feel super irritated especially in combation with what I'm going through.
I can't end my life yet until I solve this issue. If it can be solved. but even if i can solve it which im hoping it can will my idealtaion really disappear?