I can't remember the last time I was happy of waking up

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I can't remember the last time I was happy of waking up and having another day ahead. Now I have no goals, no projects. The only thing in my mind is ctb.

 

[Mr2005]

I've found the longer I stay in bed the more reasons I find to not want to get out of it

 

[FireFox]

Last christmas i told my mums boyfriend i dont want anything for christmas and that all what is to be happy again.

Before my sucidial thoughts started

I wanted to change the world and make the world a better place . I wanted a man to love me for who i really was .

All i pretend is to be happy as people around me dont seem to listen

 

[oneofthoseyoudontwan]

Wow dude, this hits me hard, i just fucking forget that feeling,

 

[_Minsk]

its one of the most intense feelings looking back at that time, totally forgot about how life once was, but i guess those days will never come back..

 

[Walilamdzi]

I'm exactly the same.

 

[Timetodie90]

Neither can I sadly.

 

[Bct]

Same here, always waking up either with anxiety or with fantasizing taking the SN

 

[zi99]

So true. The last time I was happy was September of 2018, after that everything has changed and nothing can help me

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I still remember. It hurts

 

[Klee]

Just lately I have been feeling a huge sense of dread when I wake up. I'm almost embarrassed about it, because to others I have a good life with many positive things. But I just can't help the way I feel - every day is like riding a broken bike up a very steep hill.

 

[Partial-Elf]

This week I wake up and am excited to learn about cooking. Last week it was poker. That being said, I still badly hate my life and want to die every day. The depression gods have left me with the ability to enjoy hobbies, though that too disappears in the darker depths.

 

[snowman626]

The last time i woke up happy was probably back in 1999. I was in grade 7 and i liked a girl who liked me too.

2000-2001 was quite peaceful too. I was in grade 8-9 and had good teachers and classmates.

In grade 9 i only had like 2 classes cuz i dropped out of the rest, and since i lived like 5 mins from school i could walk home during the breaks and just hang around, listen to music, sleep, eat, relax and be care free. I had the whole house to myself and it was so good

 

[Élégie]

Last time I felt happy and excited to wake up in the morning was probably in 2008. I was 16 at the time. Now I have no plans, no dreams, no hope for the future... I hate feeling numb and dead inside, but it is what it is.

 

[selfhater]

i've been suffering for too long that i forgot this is not okay

 

[Cancún]

yo remember the feeling , terrible thing to remember