I can't function in this world

[bluville]

I just feel like I wasn't made to be here, I can't do anything at least not anything considered worthwhile for this world. I can't get a job, go to school, socialize etc. I just can't do anything, and I don't know why. Even when I try it never works out, and I'm so tired of trying and getting nothing out of it. I plan on getting a job just to get enough money to buy supplies to CTB. I can't do this anymore, its not fair I don't want to wait it out or try harder I just don't care anymore. I didn't think I could ever become this hopeless, the future just gives me anxiety. Everything is just going to get worse and worse

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that I've never been meant for existing as well and it's very much understandable just wishing to leave this life behind. I certainly get that it's so awful when existing just continues to get worse and it's so horrible to me how there is no limit as to how much we can suffer as long as we stay here. It must be so tiring feeling trapped in that situation, it's true that there could never be anything fair about existing in this world.

 

[bluville]

How old are you? I'm sorry you're feeling overwhelmed like this :(

I'm 22 turning 23, I feel like I'm too old to get my life together at this point I should have gotten it but now but I'm just realizing the world isn't for me

 

[The Eeyorish One]

Im in the same boat at 26, been this way since I quit my first job at 19. Idk how people function day to day. The idea of working or going to school again is unimaginable to me. If you haven't already but are able to, I'd suggest at least giving therapy, meds, etc a try first. If cost is an issue there might be programs where you live that can help, or maybe you can find someone with a sliding scale payment. I haven't found anything to fix me but I have had some meds that have at least helped a little bit (mostly on the anxiety end of things, depression meds do nothing for me). I wish I could help but idk how really :/

 

[NHLTradeRumor]

I'm 20 and I'm the exact same way. I've tried to get many types of jobs, and I lost them all within a month, same with 2 different colleges now. I'm useless to society. Doing the same thing over and over every day for decades sounds miserable, I'd rather CTB.

 

[borderline-feline]

It seems that you and I may have been cut from the same cloth in that regard, as I'm incapable of doing anything and struggle to take care of myself. I hope you can escape your pain and stress soon.

 

[embrace_release]

same boat as you, I held down a job which I absolutely despised for almost 4 years and it broke me. Can't do this shit for 40+ years. I really hoped I'd get the the mindset of a normal person (in like: being able to work 40h shifts a week without complaining even if the job is horrible and rotting away your mental health) after 20, but I really can't. I think that's what they meant by growing up, ignoring the pain and working so you got an excuse to live. I really can't anymore and I totally get you. Sometimes people don't fit the social construct of today and I'm at peace with that.

 

[ForeverLonely82]

I can't either and on disability from trying and getting emotionally beaten by everything around me (anxiety and panic disorder with depression,wheee! ) My brain just screams at the way the world is today. All these overly political, social constructs that denies anyone of real happiness. People in the vast majority are unhappy. You see it nearly anywhere or everywhere you go. No one gives shit for people who suffer anymore and the broken mental health system is trash. I feel I reside in the wrong time line. NOTHING makes sense and People get overly offended over EVERYTHING to the point where I am disgusted by it. Feels almost like I am stuck in a prison, no parole, in it until my time is done. Not fair, but neither is life itself. I understand you completely, OP.

 

[0000000000000]

Similar situation here. No job, no school, no friends, no social skills. I live as a hikikomori. My mental illnesses are so disabling and severe that i can barely feed myself.

My hope is practically non-existent. I'm exhausted from living. Almost nothing interests me, i'm just forcing myself to live.

I will most likely end CTBing before i reach my 30s.

 

[Himalayan]

Genes have failed us. Fortunately, there's more than that.