I can't fucking do this, I can't live anymore

[ancryxia]

My brain is killing me, my mind is killing me. My thoughts, my very existence, this mental illness is crippling. Each day I feel like I am not me, I'm a corpse longing to be me, but I just can't. I can't do this, and I feel like a coward. There are so many thoughts racing through my head, there is so much anxiety. I just needed to rant. I can't take this. I want relief, I need to CTB.

 

[Amber1974]

Me too, the consequences of my opioid addiction are piling up and I'm hopeless and done trying, been trying to hang unsuccessfully all night

 

[dysfunctional]

Right there with you. It just makes it worse to know that my life was really good not long ago then I suddenly snapped.

 

[Kingkelly]

Ayy I feel you your not alone in this. I can't anymore either.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

same with me. my mind and my body are in a cage. i'm in a cage called life. that sucks, we just need to have more rights to die

 

[Jodes]

My brain is killing me, my mind is killing me. My thoughts, my very existence, this mental illness is crippling. Each day I feel like I am not me, I'm a corpse longing to be me, but I just can't. I can't do this, and I feel like a coward. There are so many thoughts racing through my head, there is so much anxiety. I just needed to rant. I can't take this. I want relief, I need to CTB.

I'm so sorry - i feel the same atm just want to cry at times. Can't CTB atm either. Bad Xmas?

 

[Retched]

I feel ya, sorry you feel this way too. I didn't last the whole day yesterday without a meltdown and my brain is non-stop with it's relentless loop of ctb thoughts.

 

[NotWorthLiving]

Lots of us feel the same as you. We are here if you need

 

[cap]

I know this won't help but I feel the very same way

 

[Ready and waiting]

My brain is killing me, my mind is killing me. My thoughts, my very existence, this mental illness is crippling. Each day I feel like I am not me, I'm a corpse longing to be me, but I just can't. I can't do this, and I feel like a coward. There are so many thoughts racing through my head, there is so much anxiety. I just needed to rant. I can't take this. I want relief, I need to CTB.

Me too! Im ctb today with helium& eb!

 

[Jodes]

The theme is getting worrying.....

 

[Xaphous]

I feel quite the same. I just have an intense self-harm mindset and little to no self control. I don't know how to explain it even but a big part of me is in perpetual self torture mode. I don't really have any forms of expression either which fuels it. It seems dying is the only solution really.

 

[letmeseethedeath]

I feel quite the same. I just have an intense self-harm mindset and little to no self control. I don't know how to explain it even but a big part of me is in perpetual self torture mode. I don't really have any forms of expression either which fuels it. It seems dying is the only solution really.

same :( i hope i'll die before next year

 

[Roadkill]

I can't do this anymore either.. I want to die so bad.. the only thing stopping me is fear of not dying and becoming a vegetable