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c821
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- Sep 25, 2024
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Whenever I look at myself I remember the suffering that came before me. My ancestors (and yours) lived through plagues, wars, chronic disease, dawn to dusk toil, hunger, extreme weather, and many other struggles. They watched half of their children die as infants. They lived in squalor and filth. And after all of those generations I am their last descendant, living in one of the wealthiest nations on Earth in the 21st century. I have plentiful food and water, a climate controlled home, financial stability, people who would care if I died. I have never truly struggled to live.
I am weak. I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of shame in the degenerated being that I am. I cannot understand what motivated these people to survive and raise the next generation in a brutal world. I have no desire to build a future. I am not stupid, I have potential, but I cannot stick with a job or stay in school. My life prospects are becoming very limited as a result. No matter what I try I keep running in circles, growing older and falling further behind. Whatever that magic motivation is I do not have it and will never have it. That's the core of it. Even with all the advantages I have been afforded, "success" still takes a lot of hardship and work, and I don't see how it is worth it.
Did everyone just lie to themselves to keep on living?
I am weak. I can't help but feel an overwhelming sense of shame in the degenerated being that I am. I cannot understand what motivated these people to survive and raise the next generation in a brutal world. I have no desire to build a future. I am not stupid, I have potential, but I cannot stick with a job or stay in school. My life prospects are becoming very limited as a result. No matter what I try I keep running in circles, growing older and falling further behind. Whatever that magic motivation is I do not have it and will never have it. That's the core of it. Even with all the advantages I have been afforded, "success" still takes a lot of hardship and work, and I don't see how it is worth it.
Did everyone just lie to themselves to keep on living?