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g0r3kittyz☆*:💭
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- Mar 12, 2024
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I have this feeling of escaping, escaping everything. All the problems, every mistake I've made, everything. But I can't for several reasons. I think one of the main reasons is loving someone. When you love someone so much you don't ever want to leave them, you want to be with them. The problem is I can't really be with this person because distance is one of the main issues. And thats why it becomes one of the reasons i want to ctb because i want to be with this person so bad but im not sure if i will be able to be in the future and it eats me up alive. But again at the same time there's a chance i could be with this person in the future so im worried if i end it now i wont be able to experience that. Its just a huge mess for me, maybe its not that big of a deal but its killing me. I already hate how my life is, but i dont want to leave someone i love behind, even though i may not even end up with them. Its like in my mind im ready to ctb but deep down inside i know im not ready right now but i still want to do it so bad and its like frustrating. Im not sure what to do...