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Kta1994
Experienced
- Apr 25, 2019
- 252
I dont know what im living for anymore
Im just trying to get day by day without overthinking how my situation is FU**** my pain is far for being managed, i can barely walk, cant enjoy food because of how my digestion is impaired and not working at all, cant spend one second without pain. The distractions are not doing it for me anymore, everything feels meaningless, movies, music, social media... There comes a time when that just doesnt matter anymore and its just content. Watching other people live their life while you suffer isnt fun anymore.
My mother is the only reason im here and even her wouldnt be shocked if something happened because she sees what i go through everyday and my deterioration. i made my peace with death, im 100% sure its better than this but i cant bring myself to book the hotel, i have sn, sn, antiemetic, benzos...
Im just trying to get day by day without overthinking how my situation is FU**** my pain is far for being managed, i can barely walk, cant enjoy food because of how my digestion is impaired and not working at all, cant spend one second without pain. The distractions are not doing it for me anymore, everything feels meaningless, movies, music, social media... There comes a time when that just doesnt matter anymore and its just content. Watching other people live their life while you suffer isnt fun anymore.
My mother is the only reason im here and even her wouldnt be shocked if something happened because she sees what i go through everyday and my deterioration. i made my peace with death, im 100% sure its better than this but i cant bring myself to book the hotel, i have sn, sn, antiemetic, benzos...