Help I can't believe this shit. I'm really going to go thru with it.... damn

[Dawn0071111]

I can't believe that I am intent on killing myself because I can't get over my "trauma guy" from last summer. I'm killing myself over the loss of a false dream AND my unwillingness to deal with the PTSD, and undiagnosed mental symptoms I have had all my life. I refuse to live as a "crazy girl." I got destroyed by this person. Thier Spirit lives on in me, I don't care. I feel a palatable worthlessnes that feels "right." I want to shoot for the trauma Anniversary, which is about 3 weeks from now..... wow. I can't belive it has come down to this. But I don't have any other choice....

 

[Jen0804]

Hugs

Fellow PTSD sufferer here. I feel your pain honey. I'm so sorry it's come to this. Are you sure this is the right decision? Feel free to PM me and know I understand !!!

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry you're struggling so, @Dawn0071111. If you're having second thoughts it may be for good reason; the parts of you that don't want to die are just as valid and important as the traumatized parts of you, aren't they? And maybe you do have choices. I've spent most of my life as an ex-pat because this way when I don't fit in I'm not a crazy girl, I'm a foreigner.

(((Hugs)))

 

[Jen0804]

You're not a crazy girl

You're a survivor - literally. I know you feel broken by that person
But I promise you. You're not crazy, just a bit broken. You need to heal and you need people who understand



Always will be. A strong woman X

I'm sorry you're struggling so, @Dawn0071111. If you're having second thoughts it may be for good reason; the parts of you that don't want to die are just as valid and important as the traumatized parts of you, aren't they? And maybe you do have choices. I've spent most of my life as an ex-pat because this way when I don't fit in I'm not a crazy girl, I'm a foreigner.

(((Hugs)))

I totally understand that too

I'm also a foreigner wherever I go

Happier that way