I can't believe I'm at this point in my life. I feel terrible for so many reasons. I read so many posts on here from people who have been dealing with so much more than I have for so much longer. I have never attempted suicide and even though I have been depressed before never like this. I have been generally happy for most of my life with the usual ups and downs. I have never been diagnosed severely mentally ill or physically impaired so I feel my reason for wanting to ctb is not as warranted as so many here. But I can't help that I feel this way. In the last year my life has become unbearable. I can't believe it has come to this last year this time I was happier than I had ever been and due to some severe choices I made in some extremely stressful situations that were a direct result of the same situation that was making me happy has led me here I want to die but am so scared. I'm so lost, I'm so broken, I'm just can't...
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Zoltiel
We're asleep in life's waiting room
- Jan 7, 2020
- 162
Hey, I understand exactly how you feel. Do you think there is any hope things will get better?
Your feelings feel so close to mine in reference to this last year being so unbearable. I can't believe that I found this site but also so happy bcuz I would have really hurt myself badly. I really do hope that things get better for as I do for myself also. This community makes me feel like I belong and even tho I'm new I look forward to conversing with others without any judgement.
Smallest glimmers of hope but they fade fast I have completely lost myself
Yes i may have hope for a very short period of time and it fades quickly. Every which way I look at it, it always seems to come right back here to ctb
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
I can't believe it's come to this either. All I needed to do was a simple google search. That was fifteen years ago
TAW122
Emissary of the right to die.
- Aug 30, 2018
- 6,931
I'm very sorry to hear about your suffering and my life sucks as well. I'm hoping you are able to be at peace at whatever decision you choose, be it to continue living or CTB'ing.
Y-B
Member
- Jan 16, 2020
- 19
Yeah, I know how you feel. It's so frustrating to feel that things could've been good, if only different choices were made.
This is how I also feel. I just cannot believe that I'm at this point of my life.
Hopefully everything will be over soon so this is something I'm happy about and gets me to sleep at night.
Yes. We want to die but what comes after death maybe it's what stops us from do it. I fear life more than death.
