Venting i cant bear this shit anymore

[アホペンギン]

Too many of my friends are dying i im sorry i can't do this anymore this world is fucked up kiko didn't want to die but she had no choice shes the last straw i don't know what to do anymore i will be attempting again shortly, hanging. I'm not thinking correctly right now so i'm sure it will fail but I can't see any more people go.

 

[AnonGermany]

. I'm not thinking correctly right now

You said it correctly yourself. You are reacting very impulsive right now and cant think straight.

I am very sorry that you experience this at the moment. I think you are very brave for openly vent and let the thoughts out of your System. This is in my opinion the correct move. Yell at things, listen to your favorite mood Songs. Be angry. Be sad, let it all out.

Meeting likeminded people on here has this huge downside once they go through with their plans. It is a huge emotional burden to see people go here all the time.

Please dont make any impulsive plans. I know that is easy to say, but false/failed attempts can also be very very draining.

We are here to be your Wall that you can scream at. We are here to listen. We are in this together, and try to help each other. You are not alone.

 

[MrDarkness]

Ik it hurts a lot, don't attempt because your not thinking straight, I'm that state rn, it really is a shithole

 

[アホペンギン]

You said it correctly yourself. You are reacting very impulsive right now and cant think straight.

I am very sorry that you experience this at the moment. I think you are very brave for openly vent and let the thoughts out of your System. This is in my opinion the correct move. Yell at things, listen to your favorite mood Songs. Be angry. Be sad, let it all out.

Meeting likeminded people on here has this huge downside once they go through with their plans. It is a huge emotional burden to see people go here all the time.

Please dont make any impulsive plans. I know that is easy to say, but false/failed attempts can also be very very draining.

We are here to be your Wall that you can scream at. We are here to listen. We are in this together, and try to help each other. You are not alone.

Yeah i guess i won't attempt after all. But i still feel horrible right now, thanks for listening to me.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Calm down a bit. I understand how you feel. It's tragic what happened here but it was the logic decision that had to be taken the other option would have been endless suffering for them. This makes me sad and upset in the same time. Life is often so cruel to some people.

 

[Huggs]

I'm sorry. All the pain is horrible, no one should have to experience it. The world is cruel, it's good when people are at peace, but it's also awful to lose someone. Everyone else has put it well. I'm glad you wrote this out. I'm always open to listening if you want to talk.

 

[Tulip<3]

I'm sorry you are hurting I know it's so horrible and you have just seen a person you care about go. Vent as much as you need, whatever you need to do but try not to do anything impulsive. Sending a massive hug

 

[befree]

i'm sure it will fail

It's not often that I'm shocked on this forum, but I am now. I talked to you earlier today and I didn´t have the impression that you would suddenly CTB.
Do you really think this is reason anough, especially with a method of which you are not convinced ? Are all these people you lose committing suicide ?
Or how do they die ? Wouldn't it be better to stay calm and look for a method that you are convinced of ?

 

[アホペンギン]

It's not often that I'm shocked on this forum, but I am now. I talked to you earlier today and I didn´t have the impression that you would suddenly CTB.
Do you really think this is reason anough, especially with a method of which you are not convinced ?

I changed my mind, this is the first time a death has seriously impacted me and I felt that I didn't have any other choice. I won't be hanging myself later today.

 

[befree]

You won´t ?

 

[アホペンギン]

You won´t ?

Yeah, I won't. I realized I wasn't thinking clearly and I calmed down now.

 

[Unknown21]

Too many of my friends are dying i im sorry i can't do this anymore this world is fucked up kiko didn't want to die but she had no choice shes the last straw i don't know what to do anymore i will be attempting again shortly, hanging. I'm not thinking correctly right now so i'm sure it will fail but I can't see any more people go.

Is kiko dead right now?!
Do u know her personally?

 

[Aloneisbestforme]

It's honestly sad how brutal the world is.

It sucks seeing these people go but I understand the world has beaten them up so badly that the only form of peace is to ctb.
I have never really loss anyone really close but I can imagine how painful it can be. I am really sorry that you have to feel this pain.

I wish the best for you!

 

[befree]

Maybe it would be better not to be online on SS for a day and look for the cat. Some distance might be good.

 

[アホペンギン]

Is kiko dead right now?!
Do u know her personally?

Yeah, kiko is dead now…
I didn't know her personally but we were good friends on the sasu discord server.

Maybe it would be better not to be online on SS for a day and look for the cat. Some distance might be good.

Yeah, I'll do that. Thanks for the advice. I really need to take a break.

 

[Slark]

Yeah, kiko is dead now…
I didn't know her personally but we were good friends on the sasu discord server.

Yeah, I'll do that. Thanks for the advice. I really need to take a break.

I wasn't that close to her, but we talked a little bit in private. She was a wonderful person, so her death also affected me a lot.

 

[bloodblacknothing]

it's hard to find the right words to say.. i'm just so sorry. seeing people go really, really hurts. as others have said: take a break, and give yourself some space. you're hurting a lot, and sticking around here right now will only exacerbate your pain. this place will still be here for you, always.

sending as much love as i can. take as much time as you need.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Too many of my friends are dying i im sorry i can't do this anymore this world is fucked up kiko didn't want to die but she had no choice shes the last straw i don't know what to do anymore i will be attempting again shortly, hanging. I'm not thinking correctly right now so i'm sure it will fail but I can't see any more people go.

Im sorry..

 

[Deleted member 65988]

It is truly saddening how this world just messes people up, leaving them very little to hang onto. She didn't want to go but had no other choice and it's heartbreaking to realize.