notherenotnow
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- Oct 7, 2023
- 228
I don't know what was I doing, or even why, but I was looking through WPD, specifically looking through videos of suicides. Fucked up as hell, but whatever, it was a long time ago. And I found this shitty, really really terrible video of a guy who failed a suicide attempt with a shotgun. He was sitting in his car. His face was so terribly damaged, there's no words I could use to explain how bad I felt for him. And the people around him, just screaming, filming him, I cant get their voices out of my head. The fact that everybody was just standing around is so fucking sad. I think about that guy every goddamn night, even though it's been such a long time since I saw that video. All those people who kept telling me I'm too sensitive were fucking right, I can't go to sleep without feeling so damn sorry for that dude. I cant explain with words how I'm feeling. I'm feeling sorry for him. I'm angry at those people, but what could they have really done? You'd have to be a terrible person to force one of those people to finish it for the guy, but standing around and filming him is just as terrible. I wish I never watched those fucking videos. I really badly hate gore sites. Maybe it's my punishment for even going on those shitty websites. I hope the guy found peace.