I think many/some people here share a love for animals or their pets. Due to the fact they were disappointed by humans they feel like animals are more pure and cannot be inherently evil. I never had a very close bond to an animal.
Here comes the story. I had a cat and some fishes as a child. My mom abused me as a child and well she sort of abused my cat too. Not as much as me but I can remember one time she kicked my cat. He bit me prior to that though. But there were other occasions where she did not treat my pets well. She gave our fishes way too much food the same did she with me. I was bullied at school for it. And I have to say retrospectively I think my fishes were pretty obese and they did not look good at all. I am scared that my pets must have been tormented prior to their death. I kind of have to relate to that. I kind of compare their lives to the life of mine because I could imagine both was full of misery.
I have a guilty conscience because I could not help them to that time. This is why I don't want to have any pets anymore. I feel like a failure for not being able to protect them but I was a child. Maybe that seems a little bit dramatic. But there are more reasons.
I watched the news and they said more and more families give their pets away. They said most people don't want to save money from their own needs. Instead they give away their pets which shows their first priorities. I think having pets is a huge responsiblity. In some ways you have to dedicate your time for them. And I think I cannot do that. I cannot even handle my own life. I am dependent on my family. I don't feel I should be responsible for anything. I am a failure. Moreover the lack of money is one of my main issues. And well if I had a pet I would want for it to have a good life. And I don't think I could deliver that.
It is similar to some thoughts of mine about procreation. You better should be able to manage your own shit if you have responsibility for another being.
Furthermore I have some antinatalist thoughts about animals. Statistically millions of animals get slaughtered by humans. I think maybe being an animal is not that good if you have to face us humans. We are higher in the hierachy. And we sort of abuse our power. I am not sure about the statistics. But being an animal can suck too. Like the chick which get shredded shortly after their birth. I am kind of sad for the animals. I am sad that my cat came into existence and that it had the bad luck to come to my family. Animals make me sort of sad. The animal kingdom seems to be a brutal place to be in. It is in some instances pure darwinsm. There are mother insects that eat their own babies etc.
We humans at least pretend to have human rights. But I think animal rights are even less respected.
This sounds like pure empathy for animals. But there are other less innocent aspects. I don't really feel like an animal could understand me like a human could. Some pets are good at sensing the feelings of humans. Maybe I had not enough contact to animals for knowing what that feels like. I am also anxious about animals. I am often even anxious about dogs. I sometimes read that all of a sudden a dog brutally mangeled their owners. I know this is rather a problem with certain races. But such stories still scare me which is sort of irrational. I think I lack the ability to comprehend animals on a deeper and I cannot judge well in which mood they are. All these thoughts would probably be completely different in case I had different experiences with more animals. The animals from my childhood I can remember looked all so sad.
Here comes the story. I had a cat and some fishes as a child. My mom abused me as a child and well she sort of abused my cat too. Not as much as me but I can remember one time she kicked my cat. He bit me prior to that though. But there were other occasions where she did not treat my pets well. She gave our fishes way too much food the same did she with me. I was bullied at school for it. And I have to say retrospectively I think my fishes were pretty obese and they did not look good at all. I am scared that my pets must have been tormented prior to their death. I kind of have to relate to that. I kind of compare their lives to the life of mine because I could imagine both was full of misery.
I have a guilty conscience because I could not help them to that time. This is why I don't want to have any pets anymore. I feel like a failure for not being able to protect them but I was a child. Maybe that seems a little bit dramatic. But there are more reasons.
I watched the news and they said more and more families give their pets away. They said most people don't want to save money from their own needs. Instead they give away their pets which shows their first priorities. I think having pets is a huge responsiblity. In some ways you have to dedicate your time for them. And I think I cannot do that. I cannot even handle my own life. I am dependent on my family. I don't feel I should be responsible for anything. I am a failure. Moreover the lack of money is one of my main issues. And well if I had a pet I would want for it to have a good life. And I don't think I could deliver that.
It is similar to some thoughts of mine about procreation. You better should be able to manage your own shit if you have responsibility for another being.
Furthermore I have some antinatalist thoughts about animals. Statistically millions of animals get slaughtered by humans. I think maybe being an animal is not that good if you have to face us humans. We are higher in the hierachy. And we sort of abuse our power. I am not sure about the statistics. But being an animal can suck too. Like the chick which get shredded shortly after their birth. I am kind of sad for the animals. I am sad that my cat came into existence and that it had the bad luck to come to my family. Animals make me sort of sad. The animal kingdom seems to be a brutal place to be in. It is in some instances pure darwinsm. There are mother insects that eat their own babies etc.
We humans at least pretend to have human rights. But I think animal rights are even less respected.
This sounds like pure empathy for animals. But there are other less innocent aspects. I don't really feel like an animal could understand me like a human could. Some pets are good at sensing the feelings of humans. Maybe I had not enough contact to animals for knowing what that feels like. I am also anxious about animals. I am often even anxious about dogs. I sometimes read that all of a sudden a dog brutally mangeled their owners. I know this is rather a problem with certain races. But such stories still scare me which is sort of irrational. I think I lack the ability to comprehend animals on a deeper and I cannot judge well in which mood they are. All these thoughts would probably be completely different in case I had different experiences with more animals. The animals from my childhood I can remember looked all so sad.
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