I came back to Sanctioned Suicide because I have nowhere else to go

[FireFox]

The months I was away from Sanactioned Suicide I admit I have been feeling so isolated.

Postgraduate year is more lonely than undergraduate year. Undergraduate is it easier to make friends and hang out because everyone is one place in campus whereas postgraduate all my classmates are scattered living in different parts of London and have lectures in different campuses across London. I got to a university with a high number of international students who go home during holiday season which makes it harder to make friends to hang out with. The guys have girlfriends or wives that they brought with them. The ones that don't it never works out.

I bond with other men at university but it never works it no matter how hard I try. I really thought i would meet a guy at university. My dating pool is shrinking rapidly as i age. My grandmother says " wait until you start working"

After everything that 55 year old man put through at work i am absolutely terried of going near another man at work.

I given up all hope of ever finding love. I dont want to be alone in this world and for me I see suicide as my way out. Having a relationship means everything to me. When my mum and grandmother die I am going to be all alone. My relatives do not care about me. If I have a husband and family of my own I will never be lonely. People don't understand how much getting married means to me.

 

[bankai]

Seems like you've set nice goals for yourself. You are doing a postgraduate degree. You're trying to get married. Please keep working at it. If that's what you want, you will achieve it.There are a lot of like minded young men out there. Shouldn't be too difficult to snag one

 

[Dejected 55]

All I ever wanted was to meet a girl and learn, grow, experience, build a home and life together with her. But I'm unlovable and unwanted and alone. I am increasingly ever-closer each day to the hopeful end of existence that will end that pain.