I am absolutely devastated and ashamed. I just tried to hang myself, but the anchor point (shower curtain rod) was too low so I ended up attempting partial suspension. That didn't work because I reflexively kept saving myself in total panic every time I was about to pass out.
I am totally broken at this failure. I told myself today would be my last day, and now it transpires I have nowhere high enough in my room to hang myself (I live in student halls, and this is the only private place I have).
I don't know what to do. I am desperate to die. I have tried poisoning myself with aconite and hemlock and just ended up making myself sick.
I am looking for an effective method that I can't back out of in case I save myself out of panic and survival instincts. I'm thinking of buying some heavy duty cable ties/zip ties and strangling myself with them.
I am totally broken at this failure. I told myself today would be my last day, and now it transpires I have nowhere high enough in my room to hang myself (I live in student halls, and this is the only private place I have).
I don't know what to do. I am desperate to die. I have tried poisoning myself with aconite and hemlock and just ended up making myself sick.
I am looking for an effective method that I can't back out of in case I save myself out of panic and survival instincts. I'm thinking of buying some heavy duty cable ties/zip ties and strangling myself with them.
