tchaik18401893
tchaikovsky
- Dec 31, 2022
- 121
I have the supplies to end my life. but i dont know if i want to do it. some days i feel like i want to do it just then, but other days i feel like i truely want to live. i dont see myself alive past 2023. but the method i have requires you to fast 48 hours and in those 48 hours im sure ill change my mind once more. i was planning on doing it in march but im not certain at all. I feel like im fighting myself in my mind. its very distressing. I feel like if i kept going i could actually do something great in life. i want to be a violinist but i feel like i have no hope anyway. all of my passion has diffused and i think the only thing stopping me is the pain ill cause everybody. but then i think, who even cares about me anyway? the one friend i have? the family that hates me?
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