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sickofbeinghere

sickofbeinghere

sad girl
Oct 27, 2021
56
I just want to die so badly. survival instinct is leaving me stranded in a body I never asked for and have always tried to escape. maybe I should go back on SSRIs again because they gave me the confidence to take more dangerous attempts on my life before. I just hate how ill they make me. and because I dont eat they just make me throw up loads. maybe I should take drugs or alcohol to get the confidence to die. I dont even know where to get them though, and Id be too scared to take them anyway. fuck i just wan all of this to be over
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,688
I understand the feeling of being desperate to leave. Life is just so cruel and of course dying should be much easier. I hope that you find freedom from your suffering as none of us should have to endure such agony.
 
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Jrmull1993

Jrmull1993

Warlock
Jul 13, 2022
753
Sorry to hear about your pain. From my experience (and I acknowledge everyone is different) Your survival instinct is most likely because you have "unfinished" business.

When my feelings were like yours, I sat down and decided what I needed to do to overcome that survival instinct. For me I determined I needed to ensure my best friend was going to be well taken care of. I purchased 3 life insurance policies, and immediately felt at ease. I have 72 more days until I'm past the suicide clause on the 3rd policy. This has given me the support I need to buy everything required to make my early exit a success. Something I previously was not capable of doing.
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,229
I often feel this way. I wish I could obtain some potent drugs to forget about me and my SI and just end this nightmare. I understand how horribly is wanting to leave but being unable to.
 
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want2dienow

want2dienow

Atari hazure?
Jul 24, 2022
339
desperate gets me nowhere to death, only worsen the agony. staring death in face watching it mock me from afar; to die but i cant so suffer the unimaginable pointless existence into an unseen oblivion.
 

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