I am grateful that suicide is an option

[leavingthesoultrap]

Im so glad that there is way to end my suffering. Im in so much pain every day.... its beyond anything I could ever imagine.... but knowing that it will all end soon makes me feel better. Today I went to write a will and I had to tell the lawyer a part of my story (I didnt disclose my desire to ctb btw) and I could see that he genuinely feels sorry for me and is concerned. He wouldnt even charge me in the end. I cant wait to go

 

[kittyswift]

me too. it brings me a lot of comfort to know that the option is there

 

[R_N]

One of the reasons I am more at ease last 4 years than I thought was possible at the time.

But thinking about death also made me realise things will end one day regardless if we do it or nah.

 

[murun_b]

Yea, it's reassuring to know that life is a choice

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand why you'd feel comforted at having the option of a way to reliably cease existing. But anyway I wish you the best of luck and I hope that you eventually find freedom from your suffering.

 

[restorekarma2024]

ikr, it legitimately feels so calming to me the idea that one day soon, nothing will ever be able to hurt/bother me again, before when I was scared of suicide so many things got under my skin and Id hold onto bad feelings for days, now its like one thought about how soon itll be over makes it wash away a bit, makes the pain bearable to me somehow, its not a cure all but it really helps with my mental state at any given moment

 

[SilentSadness]

That sounds nice for you. I'm happy that you have a way out if you choose so. It is a horrible, unfair reality after all.

 

[antilife]

I wish it was easier. It isn't though thats why its no relief anymore for me because I used to think that too and I tried it several times but my instincts stopped me. It's torture to be in this state where you feel trapped, alive but only because of instincts

 

[SMmetalhead36]

Same. Maybe I'll have the forever peace after I CTB.

 

[Painfu.Ll.suffering]

Can i ask how old you are? Have you just made an appointment with a lawyer to write a will?

I am so sorry for your situation and hope you will find what you need

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Im so glad that there is way to end my suffering. Im in so much pain every day.... its beyond anything I could ever imagine.... but knowing that it will all end soon makes me feel better. Today I went to write a will and I had to tell the lawyer a part of my story (I didnt disclose my desire to ctb btw) and I could see that he genuinely feels sorry for me and is concerned. He wouldnt even charge me in the end. I cant wait to go

The option for me to escape this prison of torture seems to me to be the only rational one for me.

One of the reasons I am more at ease last 4 years than I thought was possible at the time.

But thinking about death also made me realise things will end one day regardless if we do it or nah.

What you said there that thinking a lot about death made you realize that we all die one day.

I think it takes a lot of thinking about death to realize we all die because we don't see it a lot . But it should be out there because it is a fact the most absolute truth.

I think most normies don't even realize they will die because they haven't thought about death sufficiently enough.

Sure they won't deny it when I bring it up they can't . But they only give it a fleeting thought and back to youtube garbage distractions.

It takes a a very large amount of thought about anything to realize it , to fully understand it, to finally start to get it

 

[leavingthesoultrap]

Can i ask how old you are? Have you just made an appointment with a lawyer to write a will?

I am so sorry for your situation and hope you will find what you need

Im 28