I am going to the bus stop at 6pm pst approximately 2 hours from now. (Goodbye Thread)

[Mofreeko]

Hey guys, I've been kicking the can down the road for a few months and now I've run out of road. I really can't do another year in this body living this life. I've been fasting since 6pm yesterday and I plan to catch the bus in about 2 hours with SN. I am extremely grateful to the forum for introducing me to tons of information I could never have found on my own and to all the people I've met on here. Ironically I think this place has helped delay my ctb as it let me talk about my thoughts openly without being judged or people trying to "save" me. So far the hardest thing for me mentally is how fucking hungry I am. I have a food coping mechanism/addiction and all I want to do right now is fucking binge eat. Other than that I'm feeling relatively calm. My phone is in my car and its battery is dead. I've also put my dresser in front of my bedroom door so hopefully if I panic I won't be able to move it in my weakened state and seek help. Goodbye everyone, and Happy New Year.

For those curious this is the regime I'm using for SN:
• 6:00pm start 24 hour food fasting
• 4:00pm start dry fasting
• 4:00pm 600mg advil
• 5:00pm 75mg meclizine
• 6:00pm 30g SN in 60ml lukewarm water (30g instead of 25g due to my weight)

 

[spectraltease]

Good luck, hopefully the attemp will be successful. I wish everyday I could do the same but my time will come, now is urs. Hopefully everything will end how you wish.

 

[aforestfire]

i hope everything goes as you planned and that you found the peace that you want. good luck, see you on the other side.

 

[Anon1337]

All the best @Mofreeko

 

[Jarni]

Wish you a smooth journey to a sweet nothingness... Good luck

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

Whatever happens. I wish you the best

 

[stermc]

may you have a sweet and peaceful journey to the afterlife! may you go knowing you are an important and beautiful soul!

 

[spacehardware]

Wishing you all the best, take care, hope it is peaceful.

 

[tiredone]

Good luck and best wishes.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

May you find True Peace <3

 

[almostoutofhere]

Wish I could join you buddy, but I'm gonna have to wait a couple more weeks. Wishing you nothing but success, keep us updated.

 

[Mofreeko]

Wish I could join you buddy, but I'm gonna have to wait a couple more weeks. Wishing you nothing but success, keep us updated.

Hey if this works I'll be on the other side holding out my hand to help pull you to the afterlife. lol

 

[onceuponadec]

Goodbye, and may you find peace

 

[time2fly]

Safe travels. I am also planning on using Dramamine to help with nausea but mine has the original formula not the meclizine. Was going to join you tonight but forgot something to measure the SN before I traveled to my location (probably the SI unconsciously trying to slow me down). I hope you find your peace and I will be joining you tomorrow.

 

[Mofreeko]

Took the meclizine

 

[Wannagonow]

Hoping your trip is painless and peaceful. May you find what you're looking for.

 

[ikadasui]

Liked reading your replies even if we didn't interact. Farewell

 

[Blue_mist]

Wish you peaceful and painless journey my dear

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Wishing you peace. May you find eternal sleep.

 

[Mofreeko]

Alright it's 5:55pm and I'm going to start making the SN drinks. This will be my last update. I'm now going to log out of this site and clear my browser history.

Goodbye guys I'm out.

 

[almostoutofhere]

Hey if this works I'll be on the other side holding out my hand to help pull you to the afterlife. lol

Please do, I'm coming soon

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Hey guys, I've been kicking the can down the road for a few months and now I've run out of road. I really can't do another year in this body living this life. I've been fasting since 6pm yesterday and I plan to catch the bus in about 2 hours with SN. I am extremely grateful to the forum for introducing me to tons of information I could never have found on my own and to all the people I've met on here. Ironically I think this place has helped delay my ctb as it let me talk about my thoughts openly without being judged or people trying to "save" me. So far the hardest thing for me mentally is how fucking hungry I am. I have a food coping mechanism/addiction and all I want to do right now is fucking binge eat. Other than that I'm feeling relatively calm. My phone is in my car and its battery is dead. I've also put my dresser in front of my bedroom door so hopefully if I panic I won't be able to move it in my weakened state and seek help. Goodbye everyone, and Happy New Year.

For those curious this is the regime I'm using for SN:
• 6:00pm start 24 hour food fasting
• 4:00pm start dry fasting
• 4:00pm 600mg advil
• 5:00pm 75mg meclizine
• 6:00pm 30g SN in 60ml lukewarm water (30g instead of 25g due to my weight)

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It's been two hours, and I've just stumbled across this post. I hope you find peace one way or another.

 

[reverse03]

May you find peace.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

I am sorry life brought you to this point.

 

[dopaminedeath]

Rest easy

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hope you found peace.

 

[Jadzia]

Thank you for all of the helpful info you have given about SN on your posts and comments. I hope you have now found peace

 

[Raven2]

I hope you have found peace mofreeka. So sad to see people go but I understand when life gets too much.

 

[Shivali]