- Jun 29, 2018
I feel like I have been cursed to live a sickly miserable life though I was destined for much greater things after finishing college and having a good career, I had surgery for my urological problem that I traveled halfway across the country for and revealed a major blockage that had been going on for at least four and a half years since I got sick. I then got addicted to all the pills they were giving me and became an addict dependent on them all through the day. One night I fell asleep wrong and completely fucked up my arm and it is barely responding to physical therapy I am doing daily and vigorously. What in the fucking hell did I do deserve this God? I don't remember making a deal with the devil and worked hard for everything I earned. Fuck this whole worldwide system of putting on a face of democracy but living under the rule of the elites. I am absolutely done with this shit. Fuck my maker which probably doesn't exist and just put my lights out somehow.