Story I am a weak man.

[miulake]

I am a weak man. For as long as I can remember I have been losing battles; battle of intellect, battle of health, battle of physical strength.
Every single battle I lost and lost.

The world belongs to the victors and I am a loser.
I get neither money, nor professional or societal respect nor a partner for intimacy.

I am weak man. I not only deserve to die but deserve the most slow painful brutal extermination.

I hate myself for what I am. People like me are scums.
Let there be no mercy for me. Let me be finished.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence really is so cruel and painful. I know that it is so horrible to live a life filled with constant suffering and it sounds like you have been through a lot. I hope that in whatever happens, you find freedom from your pain.

 

[Dizzylady80]

Struggling doesn't mean you're scum, hon everyone deserves dignity and mercy, I'm sorry you weren't given that

 

[Huntfish34]

I have those feelings sometimes myself and it can be Absolutely draining to say the Least.

I wish you the best,. Take care of yourself if possible. You are not alone.

 

[whatevs]

I know how it is to be a loser, but to me you're making it worse by calling yourself scum and asking to be executed. I guess it's an strategy to make it all end faster?

 

[Klophy]

Yeah, I can relate. Far too many losses in life when compared to the wins.

Don't think you should belittle yourself for being weak though, you had no choice in the cards you were dealt.