Venting I am a coward

[Judah]

I feel like I'm a failed coward who doesn't have the courage to try to have another life for fear of things going wrong for me.

I don't know if a disabled person would be lucky living alone in another country and starting from scratch.

 

[murun_b]

I have seen people pull this off. People who used to be seriously depressed and constantly joked about suicide, then moved to another country, invented a new self, build a new life, and got happy.

But I'd be way too scared and not confident enough for that. And that's even though I have no disabilities and have the financial resources to do this relatively savely. You're certainly not a coward for being afraid of big change