LivideLamb
I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
- Jan 5, 2020
- 365
Like the title implies, I indeed almost got hit by a car today. I wasn't the one driving, but the person that was behind the wheel did not see the stop sign, continued driving and stopped the car abruptly at the last moment, right before the accident could've happened. The car that was gonna hit us, was very likely speeding and would've totally crashed into us if my friend didn't stop in this abrupt way. And, from the angle of the car that was coming towards us, I wanna gonna get hit 100%. Perhaps not killed, most likely injured. But, still, I always dreamt of a driver, a drunk driver, or, any car accidents doing the job for me. If they crash into my car and I die, I technically don't need to CTB anymore. It would be easier that way...
Coming this close to actually being hit didn't trigger any anxiety, for a couple of seconds I had accepted the fact that there was gonna be an accident wether I liked it or not. But, once my friend stopped, I was left with this feeling that I missed something, melancholia perhaps
Coming this close to actually being hit didn't trigger any anxiety, for a couple of seconds I had accepted the fact that there was gonna be an accident wether I liked it or not. But, once my friend stopped, I was left with this feeling that I missed something, melancholia perhaps
