I almost died by partial hanging - my short story

[artpopbestalbum]

I unfixed the chandelier and fixed an electrical cord I had.
I put it around my neck and for the first time, I actually managed to set it right in the arteries of my neck,
I was standing on the sofa and I started dropping my weight.
where it, quickly, made me start to slow down, and I started to faint. I wasn't out of breath, but the ligature compressed my blood flow, and for like 5 seconds I was already starting to faint, slowly going away.

Butt I managed to put myself back on my feet again, which I kinda hate myself for doing, But I guess I wasn't ready yet.

It was really peaceful, but I was scared the chandelier outlet wouldn't handle my total weight and it could all break, after I fainted, leaving me alive but disabled.

What stopped me was the pressure was..... instinctual human survival, but It was so peaceful.

The trick is to actually put the ligature around the right arteries, It's really fast to pass out, but in my case, I was afraid that the chandelier outlet wouldn't handle my full weight once I passed out...

I'm not a big fan of partial hanging, because I've tried for many times, and only once I got the ligature right on the arteries, and It's really hard to get on with this and actually let the gravity kill us...

 

[Nirrend]

Hi sweet @artpopbestalbum

Your story is a relief to read, even if I have prepared myself since many months to not be scared of death and ctb, when I read stories like yours, it's beautiful to hear.

People like you, who had the chance to touch the heaven with the tip of their fingers, lt's absolutely poetic and deep to read.

If this experience had a good effect on you, and soothed you a little, I guess that this the best thing you could receive ❤

Wishing you the best and may you find the peace you deserve ❤

 

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

Did it hurt at all?

It's absolutely human instinct to fight until the end, even if you're the one ending it on your own. That's why I hate when people say that suicide is either done by weak people or those who are cowardly. It's the exact opposite when attempting suicide... you're fighting off built-in mechanisms to protect and save yourself, so it's not cowardly or weak, it's brave and strong.

 

[artpopbestalbum]

Did it hurt at all?

No, it didn't hurt at all. And since I hit the right arteries with the ligature in my neck, It was quick seconds until I started to faint. But sadly, all other times I've tried, I couldn't get the ligature right in my veins again.

If I held my body down for more 5 seconds I'd had def passed out. It was peaceful.

 

[FallFadesIntoWinter]

Damn... I'm both sorry and happy about this, which is weird because they're both intermingled in some sort of circular logic.

 

[FuneralCry]

Thank you for sharing your story. I've always envied those who have managed to succeed with this method, but of course it's not always straightforward to leave as it's like the survival instinct is determined to keep us trapped in this world to just prolong our suffering. I do fear ctb failing as well, that just sounds so terrifying to me but I wish you the best.

 

[gwanath]

I put it around my neck and for the first time, I actually managed to set it right in the arteries of my neck,

It's so difficult, I have no idea how to find the spot. May I ask how you tied your cord?

 

[GoldenWingedShip]

So true about fighting the human instinct to stay alive. That moment just as everything starts to go black is pretty wild. It's like your body goes "hey! this is it! Cut this shit out"

 

[actual_fox]

I went through the same thing. It is so peaceful, right? Kind of a beautiful feeling. I also pulled out of this too early, tried many times. Did not work, SI always won. Si won with me many, many times.

 

[artpopbestalbum]

I went through the same thing. It is so peaceful, right? Kind of a beautiful feeling. I also pulled out of this too early, tried many times. Did not work, SI always won. Si won with me many, many times.

Whats SI? sorry, I'm new here

 

[Altvtysp]

SI is survival instinct which I guess explains why you abort an attempt even though you really want to die. I just tried to hang myself and apparently I cannot trigger the cartoid arteries so whatever I do it's going to be extremely painful. Regardless I cannot stay alive any longer and really want to die. I'd go get a gun but I'm blocked from being able to do so. Painless methods are convoluted and are difficult to aquire materials. I am gonna try again but I imagine my SI will prevent me from success. I think I need to switch to full hanging and stop being such a coward.

 

[actual_fox]

Whats SI? sorry, I'm new here

@Altvtysp explained It well

 

[NeverEndingPain]

Hi sweet @artpopbestalbum

Your story is a relief to read, even if I have prepared myself since many months to not be scared of death and ctb, when I read stories like yours, it's beautiful to hear.

People like you, who had the chance to touch the heaven with the tip of their fingers, lt's absolutely poetic and deep to read.

If this experience had a good effect on you, and soothed you a little, I guess that this the best thing you could receive ❤

Wishing you the best and may you find the peace you deserve ❤

I agree. It's a relief to read this

No, it didn't hurt at all. And since I hit the right arteries with the ligature in my neck, It was quick seconds until I started to faint. But sadly, all other times I've tried, I couldn't get the ligature right in my veins again.

If I held my body down for more 5 seconds I'd had def passed out. It was peaceful.

Where did you have the placement of the cord? Did you have it above or below your Adam's apple?

 

[niiina]

I'm seriously jealous of you, I could never find the sweet spot and I've tried till exhaustion.

 

[Altvtysp]

I'm seriously jealous of you, I could never find the sweet spot and I've tried till exhaustion.

I couldn't find it either. I guess some of us are unable to get to the carotid arteries. I tried partial hanging in various positions on my neck and how much weight I put on the rope and I didn't even come close to passing out.

 

[Ineedtodie]

Its a relief to hear but somehow its not working for me. Seemingly i need to let go and have more pressure on my neck. But Findind the right spot would be less messy I expect.

 

[artpopbestalbum]

Its a relief to hear but somehow its not working for me. Seemingly i need to let go and have more pressure on my neck. But Findind the right spot would be less messy I expect.

It took me many times until I actually got the right position, it's really difficult to actually hit the arteries. But my advice is to use a thick rope. It's easier with thicker ropes.

Its a relief to hear but somehow its not working for me. Seemingly i need to let go and have more pressure on my neck. But Findind the right spot would be less messy I expect.

Look, I had to try many many times until I got the right spot, it was really difficult. And you have to lose all your weight on the rope. You have to use some thick rope.

I couldn't find it either. I guess some of us are unable to get to the carotid arteries. I tried partial hanging in various positions on my neck and how much weight I put on the rope and I didn't even come close to passing out.

I had tried many times before until I could hit the right arteries. But I couldn't reach it again. My advice is to use a thick rope. And you have to drop all your body weight so it actually compress.