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Catofsorrow
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- Sep 3, 2020
- 10
I went with partial hanging in my room, manage to compress the carotid arteries completely. I kept pulling back when I am about to black out, it was at a point of I didn't even realised I had pulled back until I started shaking.
Things I can confirm:
1) It is extremely peaceful, you close your eyes basically black out in under 10 seconds. (If you do it right)
2) Convulsions and shaking, after attempting hanging, if you didn't manage to do it the whole way you will end up convulsing a little but nothing too uncomfortable.
3) Will power/ survival instinct. You really dont understand how strong your SI is until this moment.
To put it in perspective, I have anxiety issues and a fear of failure, been wanting to CTB since I was 10, some days I have woken up and the first thought in my mind was to suicide. And I still couldnt go through with it today.
Your body and mind will work against you and use every leverage they have to stop you. I had made the atmosphere completely perfect, I planned to die on my bed while listening to calming music with ac on. But its that moment when you touch the line between life and death do you have that moment of clarity that this may be it, I will not see anyone or anything ever again in this life.
I would conclude that hanging is an extremely personal way to go. Unless your mind is 100% made up on death, you wont be able to fight against yourself in preventing it.
I may try ctb again in the future but probably not anytime soon. Hope this helped anyone get some insight.
Things I can confirm:
1) It is extremely peaceful, you close your eyes basically black out in under 10 seconds. (If you do it right)
2) Convulsions and shaking, after attempting hanging, if you didn't manage to do it the whole way you will end up convulsing a little but nothing too uncomfortable.
3) Will power/ survival instinct. You really dont understand how strong your SI is until this moment.
To put it in perspective, I have anxiety issues and a fear of failure, been wanting to CTB since I was 10, some days I have woken up and the first thought in my mind was to suicide. And I still couldnt go through with it today.
Your body and mind will work against you and use every leverage they have to stop you. I had made the atmosphere completely perfect, I planned to die on my bed while listening to calming music with ac on. But its that moment when you touch the line between life and death do you have that moment of clarity that this may be it, I will not see anyone or anything ever again in this life.
I would conclude that hanging is an extremely personal way to go. Unless your mind is 100% made up on death, you wont be able to fight against yourself in preventing it.
I may try ctb again in the future but probably not anytime soon. Hope this helped anyone get some insight.