The Warm Industry
It's still raining, up here
- Jan 26, 2020
- 52
It almost gets funny how my life went from monotonous to hell on a bad day. Since then, every day is bad thanks to my fragmented humor and my kinetic vision of a world insensitive to the problems of others. I feel like I have everything to have a comfortable life, but my view of the world does not allow me to enjoy things as I should.
I became the person who laughs when he doesn't think it's funny, who smiles when he's broken inside, who goes about his day-to-day life as if everything is fine. All that fills my life now is the same feeling of loneliness that I felt throughout my childhood, surrounded by 'friends' and 'family' who don't even care about my presence if it's not convenient for them.
I think 'loneliness' is the keyword. And as much as I feel this way in life, I simply refuse to feel that way when I'm gone.
That is why I want to thank you all for the wonderful people you are and for supporting others' decisions and respecting each other infinitely and when the day of my CTB arrives, I will be sure to be with you, the only people who understand what I feel and make me feel like I really have friends in this world.
I became the person who laughs when he doesn't think it's funny, who smiles when he's broken inside, who goes about his day-to-day life as if everything is fine. All that fills my life now is the same feeling of loneliness that I felt throughout my childhood, surrounded by 'friends' and 'family' who don't even care about my presence if it's not convenient for them.
I think 'loneliness' is the keyword. And as much as I feel this way in life, I simply refuse to feel that way when I'm gone.
That is why I want to thank you all for the wonderful people you are and for supporting others' decisions and respecting each other infinitely and when the day of my CTB arrives, I will be sure to be with you, the only people who understand what I feel and make me feel like I really have friends in this world.
