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hao☆

hao☆

i dont understand my heart's wishes.
Apr 19, 2024
68
i just absolutely hate how i fucking look, why was i even born this way? I just want to rip out my fucking skin and fly away or just jump off my 9th floor unit but im too big of a pussy and all i can do is just stare down at the road and wonder why the fuck im not jumping yet, i would rather poke my fucking eyes out so that i couldnt see my ugly ass 2/10 face in the mirror and die, i keep making a huge fool of myself in public scenarios and always look stupid, i always think to myself if they even have thoughts of how fucking stupid i am and i feel so embarassed and i just want to help them out by killing myself, people keep telling me stop thinking of these shit but to no hopes, no. Its my only hope, solution, light out of the dark room.
 
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princess

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Apr 27, 2024
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i think being ugly is an option, let me explain. everyone, no matter how bad ur aesthetic genes are, you can always be at least average looking. just takes some work. take care of ur skin make sure its clear. accutane or skincare. hair, treat it proporly and have a hairstyle that suits you. workout keep a low body fat and watch what you eat. makeup. this alone will make a major difference. then there is always plastic surgery. nose job, lip fillers jaw fixing. looks is a very easy thing to change. maybe u wont ever be model or a person known for there beauty, but you wont be ugly. btw, confidence and the way u speak about urself also makes a realllyyy big diffrence, so watch ur words.
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
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i think being ugly is an option, let me explain. everyone, no matter how bad ur aesthetic genes are, you can always be at least average looking. just takes some work. take care of ur skin make sure its clear. accutane or skincare. hair, treat it proporly and have a hairstyle that suits you. workout keep a low body fat and watch what you eat. makeup. this alone will make a major difference. then there is always plastic surgery. nose job, lip fillers jaw fixing. looks is a very easy thing to change. maybe u wont ever be model or a person known for there beauty, but you wont be ugly. btw, confidence and the way u speak about urself also makes a realllyyy big diffrence, so watch ur words.

cn undrstnd if intentn = 2 b helpfl b howevr i.m.o ths commnt = ms-guidd

Usr mght hve dymorphia whch wll affct hw thy C thmslves rgardlss of thr lks
 
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bluebird16

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Feb 27, 2023
151
Same. I have issues with my jaw, it's crooked and the way it looks is killing me.
 
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princess

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Apr 27, 2024
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cn undrstnd if intentn = 2 b helpfl b howevr i.m.o ths commnt = ms-guidd

Usr mght hve dymorphia whch wll affct hw thy C thmslves rgardlss of thr lks
well what advice would you give them? i dont think complaining and venting in suicide websites would help at all. if they really wanted to change the way they looked, they would take my advice. if they dont, i guess they dont want their desire that much. if they want to just sob and feel sorry for themselves, then okay.

why do u type like that? it says i "dont have permission to access ur profile"
 
Dot

Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
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well what advice would you give them? i dont think complaining and venting in suicide websites would help at all. if they really wanted to change the way they looked, they would take my advice. if they dont, i guess they dont want their desire that much. if they want to just sob and feel sorry for themselves, then okay.

why do u type like that? it says i "dont have permission to access ur profile"

Thy r ventng

Thr thred = taggd as ventng

Smetmes ppl r postng bcse thy jst wn2 get thr feelngs out & tht = all -- lke an onlne journl

Typng issu = complx - Permissn fr accss 2 slf profle wll b actv8td aftr postng a fw mre commnts
 
Bruce

Bruce

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Sep 22, 2023
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@shweepwomp why don't you like how you look? What do you think is wrong with your appereance?

@Dot I think @princess means things you can do in general in most cases. Sometimes you can do some things or maybe all of the things that she mentioned and sometimes you can't do any of them. It's not always easy, sometimes it is even impossible.

@princess you mean well but stop there! don't be an ass! : )
 
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princess

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Apr 27, 2024
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Thy r ventng

Thr thred = taggd as ventng

Smetmes ppl r postng bcse thy jst wn2 get thr feelngs out & tht = all -- lke an onlne journl

Typng issu = complx - Permissn fr accss 2 slf profle wll b actv8td aftr postng a fw mre commnts
ohhh i see, thank you for explaining to me.
@shweepwomp why don't you like how you look? What do you think is wrong with your appereance?

@Dot I think @princess means things you can do in general in most cases. Sometimes you can do some things or maybe all of the things that she mentioned and sometimes you can't do any of them. It's not always easy, sometimes it is even impossible.

@princess you mean well but stop there! don't be an ass! : )
alr alr
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,001
Body dysmorphia is hell. I have it, too. Decided just today to not look in the mirror anymore. I didn t look in the mirror for months and broke the rule about two weeks ago. I get obsessed with staring at my ugly face and the voices in my head keep tell me to kill myself. Well, dear voices, I will. But I need more time.
I m pretty sure people don't percieve you the way you see yourself. But that doesn't help, I know.
 
hao☆

hao☆

i dont understand my heart's wishes.
Apr 19, 2024
68
@shweepwomp why don't you like how you look? What do you think is wrong with your appereance?

@Dot I think @princess means things you can do in general in most cases. Sometimes you can do some things or maybe all of the things that she mentioned and sometimes you can't do any of them. It's not always easy, sometimes it is even impossible.

@princess you mean well but stop there! don't be an ass! : )
i genuinely look at the mirror, and when i go outside these fucking thoughts attack me whenever i pass by people
 
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paredler

Student
Jul 31, 2022
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well what advice would you give them? i dont think complaining and venting in suicide websites would help at all. if they really wanted to change the way they looked, they would take my advice. if they dont, i guess they dont want their desire that much. if they want to just sob and feel sorry for themselves, then okay.

why do u type like that? it says i "dont have permission to access ur

As someone who suffers from body image issues, some of us can't afford timewise and moneywise to look better. I want to go to the gym but can't because I'm too mentally exhausted. I don't have the energy and I also don't respond well to pain, especially if it's persistant. Perseverance only makes me more suicidal. Sometimes, all that's left is to cry due to the hopelessness and helplessness of an undesirable situation. We just need people to feel our pain so we would feel less lonely.
 
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Bruce

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Sep 22, 2023
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i genuinely look at the mirror, and when i go outside these fucking thoughts attack me whenever i pass by people
Well, you know, it might just be how you see yourself. What most others think is irrelevant as well because their are trained to think in a certain way.

But really, why does how we look matter so much? Why don't we focus on how we think and how healthy and able we feel?
 
hao☆

hao☆

i dont understand my heart's wishes.
Apr 19, 2024
68
cn undrstnd if intentn = 2 b helpfl b howevr i.m.o ths commnt = ms-guidd

Usr mght hve dymorphia whch wll affct hw thy C thmslves rgardlss of thr lks
this ^^
 
EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,159
I still don't like my appearance at all. It doesn't matter what I do, I just can't help but find myself ugly. I don't think I'll ever get to a point where I learn to like my appearance. At best, I can try to learn to feel more neutral about my looks but even then that's an uphill battle. I don't find myself wanting to cry over how ugly I am anymore. I kind of just laugh it off because it doesn't matter in the grand scheme of things. One day I'll be dead and forgotten, so what's the point of worrying over something as dumb as not being attractive?

At the end of the day, you'll probably never be satisfied by your appearance, so what's the point of stressing over it? You may as well just laugh it off and move on because it won't matter at then of the day. We are all going to die and most of us will be long forgotten about.
 
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hao☆

hao☆

i dont understand my heart's wishes.
Apr 19, 2024
68
i have high expectations of myself
 
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