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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
1,902
It's so sunny here, bright and the birds are singing. People are more outside, more lively. Does that not cheer me up? NO! It makes me want to go live in a cave underneath the earth.

I'm just waiting for it to get dark, but even that will not be a daily hope to look forward to soon, because I live in such a high latitude that in midsummer it gets dark only between 11pm and 3am which gives me severe insomnia. It's absolute torture! I was feeling a little better in October until now (except holiday season).

But now the next torture session is about to be launched. Only break might be that there is more rain in summer, so some weeks it SEEMS dark due to heavy clouds. But this spring is looking like it will be a very dry one, so it's constantly sunny, which most people here crave as if it was a drug. They act like absolute junkies.
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
407
I feel the exact same way. I was so hoping for it to be bad weather this week. Instead the sun's shining, glorious weather. It's like a nasty joke
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
1,902
I feel the exact same way. I was so hoping for it to be bad weather this week. Instead the sun's shining, glorious weather. It's like a nasty joke
Yeah, in spring it just seems to keep going and going and going. Summer was almost better, especially last year, because there was more rain than expected, which I loved. But the lack of long night time was still destructive to my sleep. It made me abuse alcohol and sleeping pills, so now they have almost no effect anymore on me. I think this summer might be my last. I can't endure the torture anymore.
 
DivineSpark

DivineSpark

Arcanist
Feb 9, 2025
413
I feel more motivated when there is sunlight, snow melts and spring&summer comes.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
1,902
I feel more motivated when there is sunlight, snow melts and spring&summer comes.
I'm the exact opposite. Sunlight just reminds me of happier times that I can never have again, so it makes me sorrowful.
 
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divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,237
I hate how bright and peopley it is out there
 
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Tombs_in_your_eyes

Tombs_in_your_eyes

Probably crying
Oct 18, 2024
129
I hate this weather too. When you're freshly bereaved, spring weather feels like it's taunting me, personally, lol
 
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Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
249
I feel more motivated when there is sunlight, snow melts and spring&summer comes.
Same ngl. 😭 It's why I suffer in the opposite way of OP, haha, as I also live super far North, but the darkness here is like ~9 months of the year depending on how rough the summer is.
 
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MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Stuckdent
Mar 25, 2025
173
Same! And the worst thing is that the sun raises my energy levels. It's horrible feeling restless and depressed at the same time. Also, for some reason sunlight numbs all emotion. Hope it'll get cloudy soon.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,558
I typically prefer it to be cloudy, but sometimes, usually around the middle of or end of winter, I start to crave sunlight. I actually like spring quite a bit and prefer it a lot over summer.
 
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beeptad

beeptad

Member
Apr 2, 2025
31
I'm the exact opposite. Sunlight just reminds me of happier times that I can never have again, so it makes me sorrowful.
Same, it makes me think of the life that I'll never have
 
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blackIronPrison

blackIronPrison

Member
Mar 2, 2025
40
I fully agree. I hate the heat and summer and spring. Especially when you live in an urban environment and all the rotten city smells defrost its like anthrax being released from melting glaciers.

My favorite weather is the height of winter when it's so cold it stings. It's so pretty right after a cold front when it's clear there nothing else alive except you and it's so quiet and desolate. I don't think I have it in me to withstand another summer though.
 
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Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
249
I fully agree. I hate the heat and summer and spring. Especially when you live in an urban environment and all the rotten city smells defrost its like anthrax being released from melting glaciers.

My favorite weather is the height of winter when it's so cold it stings. It's so pretty right after a cold front when it's clear there nothing else alive except you and it's so quiet and desolate. I don't think I have it in me to withstand another summer though.
I love a cold, cold, cooold winter! Doesn't exist where I live sadly, we only get a lukewarm summer and sloppy wet cold windy af winter, so kinda worst of both worlds, but the times I experienced actual cold winter was amazing.
Walking outside at night or in the morning/evening. So quiet. Every crunch on every walk. It's so bright outside because the light or moon reflects light from the pure white snow.. The snowmen and other things you can build up by being creative.. Good times ㅠ
 
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blackIronPrison

blackIronPrison

Member
Mar 2, 2025
40
I love a cold, cold, cooold winter! Doesn't exist where I live sadly, we only get a lukewarm summer and sloppy wet cold windy af winter, so kinda worst of both worlds, but the times I experienced actual cold winter was amazing.
Walking outside at night or in the morning/evening. So quiet. Every crunch on every walk. It's so bright outside because the light or moon reflects light from the pure white snow.. The snowmen and other things you can build up by being creative.. Good times ㅠ
Thats unfortunate I'm sorry, I couldn't live anywhere that didn't at least get some winter. Where I live we get a couple days of that super super brutal winter that I love then the temp spikes up and and all the snow melts and it's just soggy and gross.

I think I would have done really well in one of those multi-month research jobs in antarctica that sounds so perfect to me.
 
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Corvette90

Student
Jan 2, 2025
126
I'm going to take a wild guess and say you are in the UK?
 
Raven2

Raven2

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2022
442
The changing of the clocks going forward always messes up my sleep I end up waking really early. I much prefer winter so I can hibernate. Spring and summer theres too many people out enjoying themselves just makes me feel more depressed.
 
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Spicy Tteokbokki

Spicy Tteokbokki

매운 떡볶이
Oct 11, 2020
249
The changing of the clocks going forward always messes up my sleep I end up waking really early. I much prefer winter so I can hibernate. Spring and summer theres too many people out enjoying themselves just makes me feel more depressed.
Yeah, both my sleep and day and everything has been messed up because of the changing of the clocks, and I've also been waking up earlier and earlier after the change, somehow.
 
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nooppop2

nooppop2

Member
Feb 5, 2025
22
Finally I found my people. This sunny weather is like hell for me. Bring on the colder season!
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

The one who has lost a lot, fears nothing.
Oct 21, 2024
349
I despise winter to no end. I hate it...

But on the plus side, I've been waiting on the warmer weather to come so I can move forward with my final plans.
 
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Raven2

Raven2

Arcanist
Dec 1, 2022
442
Yeah, both my sleep and day and everything has been messed up because of the changing of the clocks, and I've also been waking up earlier and earlier after the change, somehow.
It's the same for me I'm waking up 6am when I dont need to be up till later. Last spring was even worse it hit 5am and I'd be awake.
 
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KillingPain267

KillingPain267

Enlightened
Apr 15, 2024
1,902
I typically prefer it to be cloudy, but sometimes, usually around the middle of or end of winter, I start to crave sunlight. I actually like spring quite a bit and prefer it a lot over summer.
I used to love spring and summer. Now I hate it because my life turned to absolute dogshit and spring and summer reminds me of the life that once was good.
Finally I found my people. This sunny weather is like hell for me. Bring on the colder season!
How can we survive and endure until September comes?
I despise winter to no end. I hate it...

But on the plus side, I've been waiting on the warmer weather to come so I can move forward with my final plans.
What's your method since it requires warmer weather?
I'm going to take a wild guess and say you are in the UK?
No, a little further northeast, but it's similar in the UK, yes.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,558
I used to love spring and summer. Now I hate it because my life turned to absolute dogshit and spring and summer reminds me of the life that once was good.
That sucks. I'm sorry that shit turned out that way for you.
 
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SilentSadness

SilentSadness

Absurdity is reality.
Feb 28, 2023
1,329
I can understand hating the weather especially if it is very humid or very dry. Personally, I prefer the Autumn and Spring so the nights aren't too hot or cold. I like the night. I would prefer if the world was shrouded in eternal darkness and the streets were always quiet.
 
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,413
Il fait tellement beau ici, lumineux et les oiseaux chantent. Les gens sont plus dehors, plus animés. Ça ne me remonte pas le moral ? NON ! Ça me donne envie d'aller vivre dans une grotte sous terre.

J'attends juste qu'il fasse nuit, mais même ça ne sera pas un espoir quotidien, car je vis à une latitude si élevée qu'en plein été, il ne fait nuit qu'entre 23 h et 3 h du matin, ce qui me cause de graves insomnies. C'est une véritable torture ! Je me sentais un peu mieux en octobre jusqu'à maintenant (sauf pendant les vacances).

Mais la prochaine séance de torture est sur le point de commencer. Le seul point faible pourrait être la pluie plus abondante en été, qui fait que certaines semaines, il semble sombre à cause des nuages épais. Mais ce printemps s'annonce très sec, donc le soleil est constamment au rendez-vous, ce que la plupart des gens d'ici recherchent comme une drogue. Ils se comportent comme de véritables drogués.
I know you🫂🫂🫂
 
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