Story How was your guys' childhood?

[Sparkly rainbow]

In my personal life, being a kid (4-11) was the only time in my life when I was happy. Maybe it was because we were innocent, had little responsibilities or were carefree and naive. I constantly think of the past and reminisce about my childhood days especially ages 8-11 (The age when we develop character and mature.)
I remember I had the social skills and confidence to talk to new people and make friends. I was even part of a friend group and would play 4 square together. I felt like I belonged there and had a genuine connection with people. I even introduced my best friend to my other friends and he did the same. He was truly my missing puzzle piece and completed me as a person. We would share secrets, talk about our crushes, we would cry in front of each other if something was wrong. We were truly meant for each other and promised we would always be there for each other during high school, university and life beyond that.

Here is where everything changed.

When it was time to go to high school. I begged my parents to send me to a private school with my best friend but they refused, saying things like "people change and grow into different people" or "you were only close because you were both kids." I can still remember vividly the first day of high school. People were making friends and opening this new chapter of life. Meanwhile, I was just sitting at my desk wondering what to do. I had never experienced the pain of loneliness or alienation in my life. My best friend would always be there for me but now our lives split into completely different trajectories. My only thing that I had in my life was now gone. My will to live and my hope for the future completely shattered and has left me a broken person.

 

[badtoad12314]

Hmm, had a similar outlook as you when i was younger was a super happy go lucky person who basically was friends with everyone and enjoyed the company of others very much. My changes instead occured somewhere in middle school though. After countless times of hearing my parents call people that i enjoy hanging out with at school "aquantinces"(they believed if you didnt hang out with them outside of school you arent friends) and not my friends and well looking around and really feeling that i didnt really have a deeper connection not that i really had the chance because being able to hang out with anyone outside of school was a massive massive chore and my parents made it VERY VERY hard to interact with anyone outside of school. I mean i couldnt even go outside the house without begging. I really just felt so alone especially since tbh i was an annoying kid since i was super hyper and excited used to be able to take pride and not care but that shift occured and well began a downward spiral. All the constant beatings, the yellings, the fear, and the hate for myself upon listening to my mothers words eventually caught up with me and i just couldnt ignore it and move past it like nothing when i was younger. Kids would be shocked whenever i got in trouble in middle school i would just completely shut down and cry my eyes out softly to not disturb others because i knew what was waiting for me when i got home. Things only got worse in high school and well id say my upbringing has made me who i am now an extremely sad timid person. I dont really know what i am anymore after so much of following my parents i dont know what to do now that and incident between me and them happened.