How was your day?

[Girliwanttokillmysel]

Hi everyone, how was your day? Wanna talk about it? No one will judge and we're all complete strangers so maybe it'll feel good to let it out? No pressure but just so you know some people are always here to help :)

So my day was umm special? So I was with my friends and like everyday they left me out again but a little later I was just with my best friend and two other close friends and they saw my scars they all stared at me and I hate it bc they pity me and like they're all like Oh I'm sorry call me next time but this is why I hate it, people give me attention bc there is something serious going on with me but otherwise they completely forget about me and act like I'm not even there... I was going to cut tonight but I realised my arm is already full :(

 

[WornOutLife]

Sorry for your friends. I guess the situation is awkward.

As for my day, so far it's been hell. I was supposed to ctb today but I won't. I've been having great days lately but today I'm sooo down!
I hate this bipolar disorder!

 

[throughtheglass]

I was planning to CTB today but I backed up. I spent 2 hours driving around and trying to find a nice forest where I could be left alone without any risk of finding me. Now I'm crying in my bathroom, I just want to end my pain. :(

 

[Thisisme373]

My days been absolute shit, I'm seriously depressed & just want to end all this pain.

 

[Oozzy]

I just slept, ate and read topics on the forum. I dont wanna do anything at all

 

[Wrennie]

Today's my fourth day of starving myself and I love the feeling of control that comes with it. I was put on a new medication for my movement disorder and I'm not sure if it's even doing anything yet. I've just been sleeping away the pain and browsing the forums.

 

[Abir_london]

Shit
As a lonely person with no family or anything my job was everything
And today I lost it
So I just wanna die now

 

[whywere]

I just started a new job and it is 100% remote and very demanding. I have even after 64 years of being on this planet havinh nice people to work around. Most of the time I have back stabbers.

 

[WornOutLife]

Sorry for your friends. I guess the situation is awkward.

As for my day, so far it's been hell. I was supposed to ctb today but I won't. I've been having great days lately but today I'm sooo down!
I hate this bipolar disorder!

Update: I'm feeling so much better now! This is what being a bipolar person looks like lol

 

[Spitfire]

I did my first bit of work again today. It was mostly only looking over randome project data to get familiar with it.

I removed the radiator from my vehicle last night and got the new radiator in it today. The engine runs cool at normal operating temperatures and most importantly no more steam! It was steaming out the front the last time it was run. It is all fixed.

Now I can relax

 

[WornOutLife]

I did my first bit of work again today. It was mostly only looking over randome project data to get familiar with it.

I removed the radiator from my vehicle last night and got the new radiator in it today. The engine runs cool at normal operating temperatures and most importantly no more steam! It was steaming out the front the last time it was run. It is all fixed.

Now I can relax

This sounds like a productive day! Good job!
Now, just relax. You deserve it! =)

 

[Spitfire]

This sounds like a productive day! Good job!
Now, just relax. You deserve it! =)

Thanks. I justvwalked in the house and it smells good. It is taco time now! I think to go for a drive later, one of my favorite things.

I hope everyone else could be doing okay and having a decent day.

 

[paininme]

The last few months now I havnt had the urge to leave I have been depressed yeah but no real thought about ctb anytime soon but today I woke up and out of nowhere I started floods of tears and I just told myself with such conviction I didn't want to live anymore, I didn't want to be impulsive and I couldn't think logical enough so I just took some zopi (sleepers) and tried to pass the day over...it's scary how much your mind can come and overtake when you feel like you've been doing better

 

[loopylou]

Shite lol

 

[Pookie]

My day was like any other day.

 

[_Kaira_]

So exhausting and horrible. The usual BS. Been desperately looking for work so I can secure SN or something soon enough.

 

[followingfate]

sucked
started off with me and my s/o getting upset at each other again, pretty sure the relationship is gonna end up nowhere
slept through half of my classes, don't know if it's because of my new meds or what
was alone most of the day
friend told me that they actually need the thing they were gonna give me a month ago, like yeah thanks I hadn't figured that out already
I'm so tired, so done with people, just want to be gone.

 

[исчезающий]

Hi everyone, how was your day? Wanna talk about it? No one will judge and we're all complete strangers so maybe it'll feel good to let it out? No pressure but just so you know some people are always here to help :)

So my day was umm special? So I was with my friends and like everyday they left me out again but a little later I was just with my best friend and two other close friends and they saw my scars they all stared at me and I hate it bc they pity me and like they're all like Oh I'm sorry call me next time but this is why I hate it, people give me attention bc there is something serious going on with me but otherwise they completely forget about me and act like I'm not even there... I was going to cut tonight but I realised my arm is already full :(

my days boil down to the psychological pressure caused by my parents (they think I won't pass the test (and if I don't, I already ordered a 12 gauge to blow my head off)

 

[sauvenchy]

Was a good day with a lot of social interaction and new experiences. Only problem it's all acting on my part.

I just don't get it, according to the norm I have a more then decent life but WHY WHY do I hate myself so much that i want to end it??

The bright side is i'm not afraid to die but to scared to do it myself.