Discussion How to work with anxiety when trying to ctb?

[iDieUDie80]

My anxiety is problematic in that it leads me to suicidal ideation, and at the same time, it scares me away from actually ending my life, and also committing to doing it. It tries to convince me that there are certain paths I could take to salvage my life, and leads me to overthink committing my final act. In addition, of course anxiety is one of the primary reasons why we haven't ended our lives yet due to the fear of the unknown.

I finally mustered up the courage to order rope, and now it's ready for me to pick it up. Of course I can end my life on my own terms and when I'm ready, but anxiety is impinging my ability to do it at all.

 

[karel1987]

I have the same anxiety and depression but anxiety stops me from suicide

 

[iDieUDie80]

I guess what I'm saying is my depression and suicidal aspiration is shying up as I'm getting closer to actually doing it, much like our symptoms would when we are at the therapist's office. It's difficult, because I can't get help from anyone else because nobody else is going to consider suicide to be a rational option, or an option at all.