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DskDsk

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Feb 24, 2021
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My parents found my SN third time and they donot leave me alone at all. Also they check my belongings daily so they took away my paracetamol, antacid , mouthwash and straw as well that I could use for SN or Sodium azide method.

I checked using Aluminum Phosphide( AP) as well but it seems too painful and they found my tablets of AP as well yesterday.

I suffer from a lot of emotional neglect due to which my career and life suffered a lot. I have left nothing to life for actually. They took everything.


I am from India and I can do CTB using full suspension hanging method as it only requires a cloth only .

Only anchor point I can think of is a ceiling fan in Indian rooms. How to tie one end of cloth to the fan? Can you please tell me ?
 
madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
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Sorry your means were taken away. I think you can find a few videos on WPD, the fan seems to wiggle a bit though on each video
 
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Shadows From Hell

Shadows From Hell

Waiting for my permanent darkness to arrive
Oct 21, 2024
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A ceiling fan is not an ideal thing to use. It's not capable or strong enough to hold your weight, plus with you possibly thrashing around, the screws holding the fan to the ceiling will most likely break. The most that will happen is the fan lands on top of you once you hit the floor.
 
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moonsun

moonsun

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Oct 28, 2025
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My parents found my SN third time and they donot leave me alone at all. Also they check my belongings daily so they took away my paracetamol, antacid , mouthwash and straw as well that I could use for SN or Sodium azide method.

I checked using Aluminum Phosphide( AP) as well but it seems too painful and they found my tablets of AP as well yesterday.

I suffer from a lot of emotional neglect due to which my career and life suffered a lot. I have left nothing to life for actually. They took everything.


I am from India and I can do CTB using full suspension hanging method as it only requires a cloth only .

Only anchor point I can think of is a ceiling fan in Indian rooms. How to tie one end of cloth to the fan? Can you please tell me ?
Fan wont hold your weight much bud but how did your parents find out everything
 
somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

Self sabotaging day #178406
Aug 30, 2025
167
Is that what he said ?
Yeah. His mom probably asked him for something and he replies "Just wait Mom I'll give it to you in a while." It breaks my heart to imagine how his mom must have felt after she found his body :(

I've seen a lot of these suicides from ceiling fans, but I'm still too scared to try it. My fan seems just as flimsy as his so there's some hope ig. I'm 55kg (121lbs), do you think it would hold my weight? I feel like I might have to find a tree or something.
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
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Yeah. His mom probably asked him for something and he replies "Just wait Mom I'll give it to you in a while." It breaks my heart to imagine how his mom must have felt after she found his body :(


I've seen a lot of these suicides from ceiling fans, but I'm still too scared to try it. My fan seems just as flimsy as his so there's some hope ig. I'm 55kg (121lbs), do you think it would hold my weight? I feel like I might have to find a tree or something.
Man that's depressing... I think when I ctb I'll just tell my family I'm leaving to another country and just disappear...

I can't provide any info, don't want to be charged or something sorry <3

You probably can ask on the megathread though :)
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

Self sabotaging day #178406
Aug 30, 2025
167
I can't provide any info, don't want to be charged or something sorry <3

You probably can ask on the megathread though :)
Its alright! I'll test it beforehand myself. Take care ❤️
 
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