HitsanoEllangmainta
outsider
- Mar 6, 2023
- 17
I'm fully concious about the fact that I just don't have my own life so I'm engage in the watching what other person is doing. In my case it's my ex with whom I've had a quite long term relationships. I've been always interested in what's going on in her life and tried to support her whenever possible and we have a big history together. But now it just became an unuseful unnecessary habit I can't get rid of. I watch her only in the internet tho, I'm not that hardcore creep to follow her everywhere lol, It has no sense and I'm fully aware that this type of behaviour is only disturbing to other person. It's just like when I see that she has done something good I'm happy for her as I know that this thing brouth her joy. But I think it is this way until I'll see her next partner with her, so I'm trying to spare myself from this stuff, but it goes not as I would wish. Idk what i want to hear from you, I guess I'm just venting, cause I know that I should probably just find myself a thing to do that could distract me from this for a while. But I got to the point where I'm not interested in anything in this life, I'd like to read, watch, listen or play something, but I just can't find any reason to do this because nothing will change after.