according to personal experience, you don't want to get "stuck in between" a.k.a near death experiences this twists minds and its the atheists' epiphany and the end crumbling of a once safe, "fortress of skepticism" Seriously? nothing makes sense anymore (once you "experience the meaningless need, before hand, to "be" let alone "to mean" such concepts are not .. recognizable.. compatible
Think of near death experience as "opening an autocad file in an unknown format not dwg
Or maybe like, "familiarly dealing with an unquestionable set of events "delirium comatose?" that DO NOT require any thinking.. absolutely alien to us. you dont question anything until you wake up and start sorting out, basically rethinking 100% the "shattered-glass" essence of "being sentient" very fragile, unknown as if paradoxically familiar and at the same time weird no definitions apply. they're all "exercises in futility"
... so while it lasted the "propanolol I.V" was blissful but no way of getting it. Some people overthink and feel theres always one more last thing left to be done. some simply vanish, others go out in a bang, looks like it boils down to "cold-blooded awareness" of preservation instincts and no second-guessing .