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Yuki K
Student
- Mar 9, 2023
- 122
I've attempted ctb quite a lot of time, even if mentally I want to get rid of myself, yet the physical pain of it scares me. I've tried the classic hanging method but I couldn't "hang myself because I kept standing on the chair, without being able to push it off. Tried falling off a 20-floors building and even though I have never in my life been scared of heights, at that particular moment it felt like heights was everything I was ever scared off. And I started crying thinking of how pussy I was being. All these failed ctb attempts make me feel even more pathetic about myself. Being a man and yet acting like a pussy is just so disgusting for me.