how to get over SI (somewhat urgent)

[rustinpeacepolaris]

hi. i'm going to jump from the 10th story on the 20th. i know i'm only 19 but ii really want it to be over and i have several reasons for wanting to do so. i just don't think i can beat SI.

 

[ChromeCake]

What are your reasons?

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Drugs or alcohol can help.

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

What are your reasons?

i have bpd and psychotic symptoms, i've been self harming since before i was 12, i'm broke, and i'm still living with abusive parents because of it, in a state that hates trans people to name a few

Drugs or alcohol can help.

not old enough to buy liquor in the usa but i could steal some.

 

[FuneralCry]

Jumping sounds like such a terrifying method to me and like it would be difficult to go through with because of the SI, it certainly is like the survival instinct exists to prolong suffering and keep us trapped here. I imagine that many of those who suceeded with jumping just got so determined to leave and this allowed them to go through with it, I envy and admire their courage.

 

[Vizzy]

hi. i'm going to jump from the 10th story on the 20th. i know i'm only 19 but ii really want it to be over and i have several reasons for wanting to do so. i just don't think i can beat SI.

In jumping method, you have to fight SI only one time which is before jumping after that no one can do anything!

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

In jumping method, you have to fight SI only one time which is before jumping after that no one can do anything!

true

 

[gatzby128]

I hope that further thought gives you pause; a couple of days ago I came across the poem "The view from halfway down".... but who am I to judge a method, at least you would get to experience the feeling of flying... I guess there's just something about your post that makes me hope you will reflect for a moment and know your value in the world before you take the next step.... if you are certain after that, I wish you peace and love

 

[leloyon]

i have bpd and psychotic symptoms, i've been self harming since before i was 12, i'm broke, and i'm still living with abusive parents because of it, in a state that hates trans people to name a few

not old enough to buy liquor in the usa but i could steal some.

It's better to acquire anti-anxiety drugs like benzodiazepines than liquor, jumping will be much more effective if you jump in a way where you land on your head, which you might overlook if drunk. Phenibut is legal if you can't get benzodiazepines, though I've heard varying reports on how effective it is at treating anxiety. Etizolam is also still legal but that is likely to change in future. I'm not sure how available these really are though for I do not live in America.
That said, if it's all you can get your hands on, alcohol may work provided you don't get too drunk.

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

It's better to acquire anti-anxiety drugs like benzodiazepines than liquor, jumping will be much more effective if you jump in a way where you land on your head, which you might overlook if drunk. Phenibut is legal if you can't get benzodiazepines, though I've heard varying reports on how effective it is at treating anxiety. Etizolam is also still legal but that is likely to change in future. I'm not sure how available these really are though for I do not live in America.
That said, if it's all you can get your hands on, alcohol may work provided you don't get too drunk.

thank you, do you think calming drugs like lose dose melatonin will work?

I hope that further thought gives you pause; a couple of days ago I came across the poem "The view from halfway down".... but who am I to judge a method, at least you would get to experience the feeling of flying... I guess there's just something about your post that makes me hope you will reflect for a moment and know your value in the world before you take the next step.... if you are certain after that, I wish you peace and love

i've heard that. it's from bojack horseman i believe, or at least it was used in bojack horseman

 

[Bobert_Beniro]

I cannot recommend this method as it is very painful and unreliable, one drug addict threw herself off the 8th floor and was left with only a broken hip. If you do not have access to sn, then the method of burning coal or partial suspension is still available to you

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

I cannot recommend this method as it is very painful and unreliable, one drug addict threw herself off the 8th floor and was left with only a broken hip. If you do not have access to sn, then the method of burning coal or partial suspension is still available to you

ive tried partial hanging so many times and can't get it right. also i don't want to kill anyone else

 

[Quinnalyn]

I would recommend medication if you can

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

I would recommend medication if you can

can you specify please?

 

[leavingsoon99]

The SI is rooted in doubts. This may mean that you're not ready. I'd say hold off on it. CTB isn't a spontaneous thing. There IS a process to it. If the SI is affecting you this strongly, you may not be ready. Clarity is what kills the SI.

 

[Quinnalyn]

can you specify please?

Sorry I don't really want to

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

Sorry I don't really want to

then why did you mention it? you can dm if you want, not a fed or anything

 

[Quinnalyn]

then why did you mention it? you can dm if you want, not a fed or anything

I don't know how the whole dm system works I'm new but sure

 

[Vizzy]

can you specify please?

Try benzos

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

I don't know how the whole dm system works I'm new but sure

if your new you'll have to unlock it.

Try benzos

don't have some, don't know how to get any

 

[Quinnalyn]

then why did you mention it? you can dm if you want, not a fed or anything

Oh fuck it, alcohol or or benzos, sometimes antidepressants will give you the energy but not get rid of the thoughts, if you can ask for help just make sure you don't tell them you have a plan or they'll lock you up, psych wards and hospitals suck

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

Oh fuck it, alcohol or or benzos, sometimes antidepressants will give you the energy but not get rid of the thoughts, if you can ask for help just make sure you don't tell them you have a plan or they'll lock you up, psych wards and hospitals suck

thanks

 

[cherry7]

The SI is rooted in doubts. This may mean that you're not ready. I'd say hold off on it. CTB isn't a spontaneous thing. There IS a process to it. If the SI is affecting you this strongly, you may not be ready. Clarity is what kills the SI.

I wonder what will finally make one ready. I go back and forth a million times and want to just do it already. How to get rid of the doubt?