bunnii
just a little guy
- Feb 16, 2023
- 55
Rlly sorry if this is supposed to go in offtopic, I will move it :)
I've been really struggling with suicidal impulses lately, but I don't think it's my time to go yet. I want to try but I'm not ready; the only methods available to me are unreliable. I still don't feel safe around them though, I'm scared I'll have an episode (diagnosed bpd) and try one of my methods and end up disabled. I really think I should go into some sort of intensive treatment. However, nothing I say will get the suicide hotline or my therapist to send me away. I even told them I had attempted multiple times recently through hanging and they brushed it off. I dont want to drive myself to the ER because I dont want them to turn me away because that will definitely make me attempt. What have you guys said in the past that got you admitted? What program did you get into? How was your stay? This will be my first hospital visit so I'm scared (but not as scared as I am that I'll ctb).
I've been really struggling with suicidal impulses lately, but I don't think it's my time to go yet. I want to try but I'm not ready; the only methods available to me are unreliable. I still don't feel safe around them though, I'm scared I'll have an episode (diagnosed bpd) and try one of my methods and end up disabled. I really think I should go into some sort of intensive treatment. However, nothing I say will get the suicide hotline or my therapist to send me away. I even told them I had attempted multiple times recently through hanging and they brushed it off. I dont want to drive myself to the ER because I dont want them to turn me away because that will definitely make me attempt. What have you guys said in the past that got you admitted? What program did you get into? How was your stay? This will be my first hospital visit so I'm scared (but not as scared as I am that I'll ctb).