How to do fight your survival instinct?

[miserableforever]

Is there any technique, any medication, that takes care of the dreaded SI?

 

[FuneralCry]

I do not know any technique. I think in my case, I will reach the point of desperation and hopelessness where I cannot take any more and I cannot think past the suicidal thoughts. Only then I think I will I be able to leave this world. I understand that it is hard to overcome. If only it was easier to let go of life.

 

[miserableforever]

I do not know any technique. I think in my case, I will reach the point of desperation and hopelessness where I cannot take any more and I cannot think past the suicidal thoughts. Only then I think I will I be able to leave this world. I understand that it is hard to overcome. If only it was easier to let go of life.

I've been through mental abuse by my mother, starvation at home, sexual advances by an uncle as a kid. No one believed me back then. Now I'm being abused by my ex husband who is still obsessed with me after divorcing him 2 years ago. But since I have no one, no family, no one would believe me. He stole my bank accounts, started a company with our/my savings. He slaps my butt and my boobs in front of my own child, asks for sex, puts $20 in my bra for gas to belittle me. I don't have money for a lawyer and free help isn't available in my city. I called the suicide line a year ago, but without health insurance there's nothing they can do.
It's not like I want to actually die, I just don't see a way out.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I think it's all about the choice of method and knowing yourself.

 

[heretogethelp]

Is there any technique, any medication, that takes care of the dreaded SI?

I don't think I have any SI or self-preservation instinct. Must be one in a million.

 

[phoenixx]

the only thing I know that might help is alcohol, but other than that I have no idea how else you can fight it. I'm planning on taking a handful is strong painkillers with vodka before I use my chosen method, I'm hoping it will help with SI

 

[NormaJeane]

I believe that if we all could die with the help of a doctor, survival instinct would not be a problem. If the suicide method is not peaceful and there is a risk of failure, then I believe it is about suffering, willpower and courage. The bravest people are those who consciously choose death.

 

[MeltedJello]

I think practice makes perfect. Of course with some methods you can't really practice so thats a reason why SI is really difficult to fight. I rarely get any opportunities to practice partial so I'm waiting until a day I ctb with full suspension hanging. Thinking about all the negatives in life may help combat SI.

 

[cytokinestorm]

I would take sedatives, strong painkillers and some alcohol - not too much though as you'd want to avoid vomiting. I figure the SI would be weaker if sedated and feeling numb.

 

[StevieNixs]

Is there any technique, any medication, that takes care of the dreaded SI?

I took a strong benzodiazepine the other day. I was googling benzos stronger than Diazepam and saw it and bought it. Spent most of the day in a weird dissociated state of complete apathy. Not sure if this would help with SI as I do not think I presently have a SI, I wake up each day and have to force myself not to CTB. But, it did occur to me it might completely help to dull my sense when the time comes.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

If you are taking anti-depressants, you could abruptly stop a short time before the date you've chosen. The withdrawal could send you over the edge.

 

[miserableforever]

If you are taking anti-depressants, you could abruptly stop a short time before the date you've chosen. The withdrawal could send you over the edge.

Good idea, never thought of that

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Good idea, never thought of that

I'll be doing this prior to my death too. I initially got this tip on SS and thought it was a neat idea! I remember one time when I ran out of pills and felt extremely depressed and had zero energy.

 

[Jumping_realms]

Benzos, alcohol, barbiturates.

 

[doesntevenmatter]

I guess I can't really answer that, because look at me I am still here lol. That being said, I always feel like it's easier with alcohol which I am drinking right now. It makes me feel like I can actually do it. There's been many a time that I have drank myself crazy just hoping it would give me the courage to do it. Unfortunately, even though alcohol has got me so close to that point it hasn't quite done the job. I'd say any sort of downers could help, but it probably varies from person to person. As for techniques I would assume that constantly imagining and thinking about the reasons you are doing it would help, but I can't say for sure especially since I am not you. All that I can say is that I wish you peace, and to make sure you're absolutely 100% certain you're ready before taking that plunge.

 

[Walkingcorpse123]

I have tried to go under train couple times but SI was too strong but that way I have seen how it works. I think I need some drugs to make me numb so I don't get emotional and then I have to outsmart the thoughts. Planning to ctb with SN.

 

[logan]

CBD oil definitely helps and you are still fully conscious.

 

[NoPointToContinue]

I think you have to be absolutely certain about ctb and about your reasons for ctb.

One thing also might help is visualization of that moment and seeing how would you feel. Mind does not know the difference between reality and imagination and if you can vividly imagine that moment you are gonna see SI up close, it will be like test run. Few of these tests you will be more ready for that moment. I remember when I first imagined that SN drink is in front of me ready to be drank I felt such fear and dread. But now when I think about it, it does not create such strong emotions as before.

 

[littlelungs]

If you are taking anti-depressants, you could abruptly stop a short time before the date you've chosen. The withdrawal could send you over the edge.

Oh god, I have to echo this as well. I don't even feel real when I'm withdrawing from SSRIs. It makes me feel even more detached than I already do, and thus my survival instinct practically disappears because I don't even feel like I exist in the first place... everything just feels like a dream. It's hard to describe.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I go outside and experience cold and rude people. This is enough to dampen my survival instinct.

 

[miserableforever]

I'll be doing this prior to my death too. I initially got this tip on SS and thought it was a neat idea! I remember one time when I ran out of pills and felt extremely depressed and had zero energy.

I've never been on SSIs, only Benzos. Might try that if I can't figure out life within the next week.

 

[Snake of Eden]

If you are taking anti-depressants, you could abruptly stop a short time before the date you've chosen. The withdrawal could send you over the edge.

I think this is really really really a bad advice. I stop meds aburptly for few days and as bad as the withdrawls feel like, they are in no way are pushing me to end things. People can feel all sorts of pains and torments and still cant help themselves but to want continue living because they dont know anything else

 

[1up]

If you are taking anti-depressants, you could abruptly stop a short time before the date you've chosen. The withdrawal could send you over the edge.

Please don't ever do this. There's a girl that spent three years (charged with eleven years) in juvenile detention because her pediatrician made her stop taking antidepressants cold turkey. She ended up having a psychotic episode as a result, and the police didn't treat her fairly since she was black. She was just 14, so I imagine the consequences would be worse if you're older.

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[sadworld]

Benzos work for me. On high doses I literally don't give a fuck what happens with me.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Please don't ever do this. There's a girl that spent three years (charged with eleven years) in juvenile detention because her pediatrician made her stop taking antidepressants cold turkey. She ended up having a psychotic episode as a result, and the police didn't treat her fairly since she was black. She was just 14, so I imagine the consequences would be worse if you're older.

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I'm on Sertralin which is an SSRI. I don't know what kind of side effects might come about from stopping other anti-depressants. I know what to expect for myself, so 4 days before ctb should be enough to push me along.

 

[phoenixx]

I'm on Sertralin which is an SSRI. I don't know what kind of side effects might come about from stopping other anti-depressants. I know what to expect for myself, so 4 days before ctb should be enough to push me along.

I'm also on sertraline (100mg). It has different effects on people but I've stopped taking them a few times over the years and they bring me right down. The last couple of times it only took me a few days to a week to impulsively attempt suicide (even when I hadn't made any plans to do it). I just kind of thought "right, I'm going to hang myself now" and I'll attempt. Of course, I failed those few times. Survival instinct mainly. But also because I hadn't planned ahead and just didn't want to die at home but at the time, in my head, I just wanted to do it. It's crazy.