How to cut?

[Final_Choice]

I volunteer at a medical warehouse and when I'm on discarding duty I like to grab cool stuff I see. I have a small collection of safety scalpels since the safety mechanism is a cool thing to fidget with. I accidentally stabbed myself in the back of my hand and I don't know how to explain it but I kind of want to do it again, but can't go through with stabbing myself for some reason. Is there anything I can do to make it easier or should I just stop whining and go through with it?

 

[John-Doe]

i would enjoy collecting different little medical tools like that too, that sounds cool.

obviously i wouldn't recommend self-harming at all, but if you do i especially wouldn't recommend stabbing yourself as that would be very hard to control the severity/depth of the injury. when i cut i used somewhat slow slicing motions then i could control the downward pressure and size a lot easier.

 

[Final_Choice]

i would enjoy collecting different little medical tools like that too, that sounds cool.

obviously i wouldn't recommend self-harming at all, but if you do i especially wouldn't recommend stabbing yourself as that would be very hard to control the severity/depth of the injury. when i cut i used somewhat slow slicing motions then i could control the downward pressure and size a lot easier.

That's good to know. I have some other random tools and some chemicals as well, everything is expired but I was also thinking of using some lidocaine I took to make it hurt less, but since the problem is more psychological it probably wouldn't do anything. I don't know why, but the I liked the small pool of blood I made when I accidentally stabbed myself, it didn't hurt either and since the actual cut was small I was able to disinfect it, clean it, and patch it easily; I was thinking about striking fatty areas where I wouldn't hit anything important but I'll try to stop myself and do that if I get a very strong urge again.