sam is aways offline
not even for a second will I ever be saved
- Dec 1, 2020
First, sorry for my bad english, i'm far from being a native speaker (and this is tragic, i admit). So, basically, i really need to CTB because of traumatic events that have occurred all my entire life. I don't want to give more details, but it's something that fucked me uso much that I can't barely function as a normal person. My whole existence is a hell, and others usual problems you can expect from a person like me. Despite everything, i'm still attached to many things in that plan. There are things here that I really love, I don't want to leave behind. But the point is that it’s not about wanting anymore, I need to leave. But how, if I'm still so coward and attached? I don't need any speech about how I am not ready and things like that. Is there a mental exercise I can do to make the fear go away? Or I just need to follow my impulses? Planning or just my will?