lili
Specialist
- Feb 17, 2022
- 319
Hi everyone,
I've gotten the SN stuff but it's not going to arrive till the end of March. It's just been very painful to wait and know it takes so long to get here. I really don't know what to do with myself.
I'm tired of having to pretend with anyone and just doing all the things one is expected to do in life. I'm tired of feeling super lonely and just having constantly empty days.
And now knowing that I have to wait this long for this, it's a lot. I've tried so many times before to end things via pills. I also tried the exit bag method in the past from a book about euthanasia but I miserably failed because I didn't realize helium tanks nowadays for balloon parties are basically suicide proof. I guess my biggest problem is that I don't like the idea of dying in a painful way or a manner that would be horrific for others to witness. Such as falling or I guess hanging.
Who else is in a waiting period and how do you handle these moments? What do you do with yourself?
I've gotten the SN stuff but it's not going to arrive till the end of March. It's just been very painful to wait and know it takes so long to get here. I really don't know what to do with myself.
I'm tired of having to pretend with anyone and just doing all the things one is expected to do in life. I'm tired of feeling super lonely and just having constantly empty days.
And now knowing that I have to wait this long for this, it's a lot. I've tried so many times before to end things via pills. I also tried the exit bag method in the past from a book about euthanasia but I miserably failed because I didn't realize helium tanks nowadays for balloon parties are basically suicide proof. I guess my biggest problem is that I don't like the idea of dying in a painful way or a manner that would be horrific for others to witness. Such as falling or I guess hanging.
Who else is in a waiting period and how do you handle these moments? What do you do with yourself?