I get how you feel. In every situation, every group, every activity, every social setting, every competition, every project, or any other aspect of life...I'm always, and I mean always, the farthest behind, or the last one to understand it, or the one who needs the most help, or the only one who can't do it, or the last-place loser, or the one who does the shittiest job. Inferiority is basically what I breathe.