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brokenengine
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- Dec 18, 2019
- 25
I know all the thought patterns I'm "supposed" to have. I should be telling myself that it's okay to go at my own pace, my best is good enough, it's okay to make mistakes, etc. But those phrases can't change the way I feel... Even if I make small improvements I feel like I'm in a hole that's too deep to get out of. If I'm miles below the earth, how can one step up make a difference, especially when I know I'll probably fall back down again? I've read about the concept of resilience and I know that's what I lack. But I don't know how to get it? It's especially ridiculous because this is almost completely internal, my parents and my bf are so supportive and I'm somehow just doing this to myself. Maybe I need to drill it into my brain until I believe it. Maybe I'm just posting this thread bc I want someone to tell me I'm doing a good job even though I woke up at noon and still haven't showered or brushed my teeth lol. I'll go do that now I guess.