I'm finding watching and listening to suicide talks are helping rather than watching TV shows I enjoy making me think this world isn't too bad... Until I have to work to keep the roof, TV and food. And then get a phonecall off moaning relatives. And looking at news stories realising society is hell.
Sorry if this doesn't make sense to others basically I'm focussing on the horrors of the world so there's less chance I'll attempt to back out.
To be honest though I think I'm going to have to ensure my method. For example if using poison...
Destroy my phone, tape my mouth shut, chain myself to a point in the room while chucking key out of reach, not a nice way to go because we are trapped in these shitty physical bodies in an evil game.